Hey, My Coffee Lover

Chapter 40

Chapter 40

I woke up screaming and crying and sobbing. Masakit ang ulo at katawan ko. Mabilis din ang kabog ng dibdib ko sa kaba.

Sa takot, mabilis akong napaupo sa kinahihigaan ko dahilan para mapaungol ako sa sakit ng ulo ko. Tears stream down to my cheecks as memories of what happened flashed back.

Napahikbi ako sa sakit.

"Sab? Damn. What's wrong baby?"

Napalingon ako kay Sam ng mabilis syang dumalo sa akin. I swallowed hard before I cling into his arms. Sam held me and I rested my head on his chest. Marahan akong niyakap ni Sam pabalik.

"N-Natatakot ako Sam." nanginginig na sabi ko.

Sam hold me tighter.

"I'm here. You're safe with me. Don't cry please." he said and I can almost taste the pain in his voice.

Humikbi ako.

Sam embraced me and I let myself cry in his chest.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Sam keep on saying that while kissing the top of my head. Napapikit ako.

"It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself." I whispered. I felt his breathing in my head.

"I... I can't stand seeing you like that Sab. I'm so sorry baby. I failed you." he said desperately.

Kumalas ako sa yakap nya para harapin sya. His eyes were tired and red. Namumungay ang mga mata nya akong tiningnan. Marahan nyang hinaplos ang pisngi ko at napapikit ako nang maramdaman ang kirot mula sa mga sugat ko doon.

"What did he do to you?" he asked painfully. Hinilig ko ang pisngi ko sa kamay nya.

I saw his jaw clenched.

"You saved me. Thank you Sam." I said.

Sam swallowed before nodding slowly. He pulled me near him and he settled himself beside me. I nestled on his chest and he hugged me.

"You should rest." mahinang aniya. I nooded.

Indeed, I felt weak and tired. Sa mga braso ni Sam, nakaramdam ako ng antok hanggang sa tuluyan na akong nakatulog.

"I love you..." I heard him whisper and I'm too weak to recognize if it was real...or just a dream.

Naalimpungatan ulit ako ilang oras lang ang nakalipas. I can't have a peaceful sleep knowing what just happened. Sa tuwing pipikit ako, bumabalik sa akin kung paano nya ako tingnan. Bumabalik sa akin kung paano nya ako hawakan.

All the years I spent trying to bury that memory was put into waste when he did that again last night. Nabalewala lahat ng respetong binigay ko sa sarili ko noong binaboy nya ako.

And I felt helpless knowing that I allow him to do that to me again. I allow myself to be weak again.

Wala si Sam sa tabi ko noong magising ako. I searched for him and I found him in the veranda talking someone to the phone. Sandali ko syang pinanood.

His hand is balled into fist and I saw how his jaw tenses everytime he speak. He looks mad by the way he talk. I sighed and wonder who's he's talking to.