Obsession Series 3: Caliever Roztov

Chapter 19

"I am jealous Cal"

"I am jealous because she always hang out with you. She's always there for you it's like that you don't need me anymore. And I hate it, I hate it. Dahil imbis na gusto kong magalit sayo dahil sa iniwan mo ako, hindi ko magawa. Naiinis rin ako dahil nakakaramdam ako ng saya pag ikaw ang kasama ko, naiinis ako dahil hinahanap hanap kita lagi. Alam mo ba kung ano ang ikinaiinis ko? Yung hinalikan ako ng bestfriend ko, dun ko na lang narealize na mahal kita" naiiyak na sambit niya at tinanggal ang maskara niya at tiningnan ako habang hagulgol ang iyak niya.

"Oo, mahal kita, Cal. At ang tanga ko dun kasi..just because of that one single kiss you're making me falling in love with you."

"Mahal rin kita Grace" sagot ko habang tinitingnan ang mga mata niya.

"Tama na, Cal. You don't have to say it just because I love you, I know you're also saying that just to forgive you. Well, okay. If you want my forgiveness then I forgive you Cal. But, loving you? Is hurting me more. No need to explain everything, I understand. Sorry for loving you. I gotta go"

HABANG inaalala ko ang nangyari na iyon kanina ay napalagok ako lalo ng alak. I don't have a choice but to drink and drink all night.

"Cal, stop that" nakita ko naman si Alystrid inaagaw ang alak nito sa akin pero mas malakas ako sa kanya kaya di niya ito inagaw sa akin.

"What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed in the party, naghahanap kay Yael?" umupo naman ito sa tabi ko.

"Nandito ako kasi alam kong ito ang bubungad sa akin. You left me, remember?" she asked and I smirked.

"It's not a big deal. You can flirt with someone"

"No I can't" she responded so I looked at her.

"Why not?"

"Because.."

"I like you more than friends. I really like you Cal" I smirked again.

"Sorry but I don't" sabay lagok ko uli ng alak.

"But I know you will love me, tuturuan kitang mahalin ako" pagmamakaawa niya.

"Alystrid, naririnig mo ba sarili mo? Have you lost your mind?" galit kong tanong sa kanya.

"Oo, alam ko na ang tanga ko. Pero Cal-"

"Stop, you are the reason why Grace is avoiding me, she's even hurting! Damn it, Alystrid!" tumayo ako habang tinapon sa gilid niya ang alak.

I know she's scared but I can't help it.

"Cal, please-" naiiyak na sambit niya.

"Look Alystrid, I can't love you, I can't give the one thing that you wanted. Babae ka, ayokong magmakaawa ka sa isang lalake na hindi naman kayang ibigay sayo ang gusto mo. Please know your worth. And about Grace? I love her. I know that she's pushing me away because I am hurting her. At kung lumayo sayo ang isa sa gagawin ko para mapatawad niya ako gagawin ko, so it's either you leave or I will then you'll never see me again. So, get out" tumayo naman siya at mabilis na nakalabas sa bahay ko.

Napaupo ako ulit sa sahig at kumuha ng alak sa drawer at uminom ulit.

"Grace, please let me in. Si kuya mo ito, please." I keep om knocking the door because I know my sister isn't okay, she's vulnerable.

"Kuya, hayaan mo muna ako please" sagot niya sa akin.

"Grace, I can't do that to you. Not know, okay? Mamili ka, bubuksan mo ito o sisirain ko yung pinto?" siniko naman ako ni yaya.

"Tinatakot mo naman yan eh" sambit niya sa akin.

"Wala akong choice yaya" mahinang saad ko. Maya maya pa ay bumukas ang pinto at bumungad sa amin ang mukha ni Grace na parang multo.

"What the fuck, you didn't wash your face? You didn't even wipe your make up" niyakap naman niya ako at umiiyak siya sa dibdib ko kaya niyakap ko rin siya habang hinihimas ang ulo niya.

"Shh" pinaupo ko naman siya sa kama at umupo lang ako sa tabi niya. Kinuha ko naman yung wipes at tissue.

"Do I have to explain it to you kuya? I know that you heard and saw everything last night" I puffed out and laughs.

"Okay, yes I saw everything. I know you are going through, you're hurting I get it. And I'm proud of you" she looked at me with a confused look.

"I don't understand. Why are you proud? Proud because I'm hurting?" umiiling naman ako at binigyan siya ng tissue, kumuha naman ako ng wipes at dahan dahan kong pinunasan ang make up niya sa mukha.

"I'm proud because my sister is already a woman. You are so brave that you told him about what you really feels for him. You already got that courage that you're hiding for like almost 10 years, a courage to told him the whole truth that you, Grace is falling in love with a man who left her for 8 years. I know that you are hurting, but you'll get through with it. You're a strong and independent woman right?" she nodded her head.

"Maybe you're right kuya, malalampasan ko rin ito. Masakit pero kaya ko to" I lift her chin up then she smiles.

"There, you are so beautiful. I wonder why you didn't believe him when he told you that he loves you"

"Kuya, I know it was part of his plan para mapatawad ko siya." I smiled slightly.

"If he really don't love you then why is he doing here? Drunk and mess"

"Grace, I want to talk to you please" nagulat naman siya ng marinig ang boses ni Caliever.

"Kuya, don't tell me-" I chuckled then she stood up and looked at the window. Sumunod naman ako kay Grace at nakita ko si Caliever sobrang lasing at sobrang dumi pati damit niya ay parang masasabi mo na baliw siya.

"Grace, let's talk. Come on" pagmamakaawa niya at lumuhod naman ito, hinawakan naman ako ni Grace sa braso at tiningnan ako.

"He texted me na papunta siya dito, not my fault. Hindi ko na rin siya pinigilan, you know him. No one can stop him when he's drunk" I said.