Himitsu No Ai 秘密の愛 ⋮ Levi Ackerman

Chapter 2

Everyone gathers in a room to prepare for the days briefing. Levi stands somewhere on the opposite side, he's discussing matters with Erwin (like they always do). You chew your lower lip softly and repetitively. You unknowingly find yourself staring at him with an unwavering gaze.

The man eventually looks your way and your eyes meet briefly before you turn away. You're embarrassed, embarrassed that he noticed you fixated on him when you were supposed to be paying attention to your squad Captain, Hange. You brush the loose strands of hair behind an ear and you steal a glance. Levi, he's still looking at you. It makes your stomach somersault and you bite back your smile. One finds it's way to your lips anyway.

Behind those empty eyes of his were a subtle glint. A glint that conveys every emotion the man was feeling and every emotion that his face refuses to show. It was a glint that only you could see, because that soft glimmer was meant just for you. You think back to last nights venereal meeting and you wonder if tonight will be the same. But it always was (to some extent).

Erwin notices Levi's inattentiveness and he follows the dark-haired males line of sight. Of course it was you that he was looking at. Erwin had his suspicions but out of privacy he doesn't voice his thoughts. Plus, it was none of his business what Levi did behind closed doors.

Sasha nudges you with an elbow and your focus is now on her. Her waggling eyebrows and her playful smile make fun of you, because she knows exactly what you're looking at. You mouth the words 'shut up' to the girl and she tries hard not to cackle.

Sasha was the only person who knew about you and Levi's undisclosed engagements. And that's only because she had walked in on the two of you one morning (thankfully not whilst in action, but naked? 100%). You actually didn't even know the man's name until she bursted through the door of your room to rouse you from your sleep. The girl was hungry, she needed to eat and she wanted you there with her.

Your mind briefly goes back to that time.

"Hey! (Y/N)! Time to....." Sasha speaks loudly as she walks in but her volume tapers to a whisper, ".....wake up."

You quickly bring yourself to a sitting position. Your hair's a mess. The sheet is wrapped around you. You're startled. Levi sits up. His chest is exposed. The man's also in mild shock. The two of you stare at her and the silence that ensued was deafening.

Sasha was nonplussed. She didn't know what to say or do but neither did you or the man. The girl manages some words—a name to be exact, "C-Captain Levi??"

Captain Levi? Your brows furrow. Why is she saying his name? But then you find out that the man laying next to you. The man that you had slept with was humanity's strongest soldier. Lance Corporal Levi Ackerman of the Special Operations Squad. The man that you'd been wanting to meet. The man that you were to devote your life to. What were the chances?

You later question the man. You ask him why he didn't tell you. You ask him why he hid his identity from you, knowing very well you were talking about him to him.

"Would you have done things differently if you knew who I was?"

And Levi was right. You likely wouldn't have said all those things to the guy and you likely wouldn't have slept with him either if you knew who he was. But you didn't regret it. Not yet at least.

The briefing concludes and everyone makes way to the districts gate, the gate that lead to the outside world. A lot of the soldiers didn't understand the need to scout frequently anymore. There hasn't been any Titan sightings near the human field in years and the only time you'd ever run into one is if you just so happen to wander into their territory (which is seemingly far away). But the previous presaging disaster had left many traumatized and paranoid. So, still, they tread carefully.