· this terrene, so aphotic. my voice unduly too thin. will it even reach the perpetrators or will it be buried within?
i, revel in my convoluted, never particularly welcomed but occasional darkness here,
as i take path d...
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i lay awake, gazing at the twilight
Wondering how it got so bad,
How it kept on draining all my might.
I go above and beyond
round and round,
I hear whispers and
glance at faces with sneers.
I revel in the middle,
I lose at the end,
Crazy how much I've got to mend.
I will myself to rein in the urges,
Courage from deep within emerges,
but the demon's still there, peeking
through the curtain,
I run and hide,
my fallen grace still very uncertain.
What would it be like to just end it all,
To not disappoint, to not fend them all,
To not fear the uncontrollable,
To not be the only one who is so
unlovable.
To feel no pain, to end the sorrow,
To smile away the fear of tomorrow,
To breathe and feel no guilt,
Make them proud and see her not wilt.
For once, to be better,
I try to persevere
To bring joy as not to upset her,
I pick away at the parts of me,
Pull myself apart just to fill her with glee.
Oh, mother, I'm tired now,
My hopes in shambles,
I admit defeat with bow.
I lay awake,
my wrist now numb,
wondering how it got so bad,
How it kept on draining all my might.
____________ 28. 09. 2021
p/n
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