Emotions clouded my head, eyes nearly fluttering shut. This couldn't be happening- this really shouldn't happen.
It took me a moment to register Dracos words, my eyes slightly watering. This wasn't fair, I have a whole life ahead of me. I have a future and I can't afford to not work. My heart ached, thinking back to the miscarriage I had. I'd already been pregnant once and lost it, what if I lose this one too? What if I'm not capable of being a mother?
A hand was pressed against my cheek, a body flush against. For a moment, I forgot Draco even existed.
"Estrella," his voice was soft, hands holding me like I was a plate made of glass. "I don't- I don't know what to say. I'm sorry."
My knees were about to give out, "What pill did I take?"
He gulped, "A sleeping pill."
"You gave me a sleeping pill?!"
"They put it right by the fucking morning after pill, okay?" He sighed deeply, "Yes, it's my fault. I take the full blame, but I am sorry. If you want to- Um.. you know.. abort it-"
"I would never do that but I- I can't support a baby, Draco," my eyes watered even more, hands clutching onto his shirt. "I don't- I'm still young. I have no room in my apartment, it's a complete mess and I can barely take care of my kittens. How am I supposed to take care of a child?"
He shook his head, "Money's not a problem, Estrella-"
"Don't you get it?" I snapped at him, pushing backwards and out of his grip. "I don't want your money. I don't want anymore of it. I want to be able to take care of myself and the only way I can do that is if I get this position. I can't do that if I have a child. And my sister-" oh my fuck. "She's gonna kill me!"
His hands grasped my waist again, a hard glare on his face. "Estrella, she already knows."
My eyes widened in horror, surely this was a deal with the devil. "What?"
"She was the first person I came too," he looked at me, rubbing small circles on my waist. "I did end up getting slapped in the face and kicked in the dick, but she set us up appointments and got you the things you need."
My eyes watered even more, "She's gonna hate me. I lied to her Draco she- she called me and I lied to her."
He pushed my head into his chest, a sob wrecking through my throat. "It's gonna be okay, I promise."
The suddenly a thought came into my head.
Astoria.
A gasp in the mix of a sob left my lips, my hands pushing him back even more, tears staining my cheeks. "Oh my god, Draco-" he narrowed his eyebrows at me, trying to pull me back in but I only stepped back.
My heart ached.
"What? What is it? Are you hurting?" I backed away even more and this only got him more angry. "Talk to me, Estrella. Please. I know I screwed up-"
"You can't blame yourself, Malfoy." I pressed a hand on the door, his face dropping at the name I called him. "It was two sided. I knew the consequences of not using protection. But I gave you everything. And then I-" my voice choked up, throat closing in on me and a wave of sadness hitting me like a train. "I walk in on you kissing Astoria."
He began to grow more upset at the look on his face, his feet staying exactly where he was but the twitch in his hand told me he wanted to pull me into his arms.
"Please tell me you aren't together," I cried, hands starting to shake. "Please tell me I didn't sleep with a committed man."
His silence was my answer.
And it was also the reason my heart broke.
"Oh my god," my hand clamped over my mouth to contain my sobs, my other one pushing the lock and opening the door, walking out.
He didn't follow after.
-
"Babe, I really need you to hurry up." Jae guided me into the hospital room, his hand around my waist while we walked.
We were about to be late for my 'appointment' to see my baby. With my sister. Of course she had to be the one who has to do this. She hasn't talked to me since I lied to her and I don't blame her.
I haven't seen Draco in three days but I knew he wasn't gonna show up. I would tell him everything when I find the courage too. This is his child too, no matter how much I wish it wasn't. Although, I'd rather it be him then anyone else.
We stepped into the elevator, Jae pressing the button to the elevator and then coming back to me with a look on his face. "What?"
"Nothing, nothing." He shrugged, silence taking over, until he decided to speak. "I'm gonna be The Godfather right? Pfft, what am I saying? Of course I am, you have no friends."
The elevator dinged, opening afterwards. "Well, thanks for that."
He smiled at me and guided me into a room, Hermione sitting there, a glare set on her face. "Nice of you to finally show up."
"Sorry," Jae apologized, shutting the door behind us. "She overslept and we had to get her breakfast."
Hermione Rose and eyebrow, "Oh, I can imagine why you're hungry."
I gulped, pushing my palms on the hospital bed and hoisting myself up with a sad expression. "Hermione-"
"Why would you lie!" She snapped, standing up and crossing her arms. "You told me nothing happened between you two and then four days later he shows up in my office telling me you're pregnant! How could you be so careless?!"
My lower lip started to quiver. "I know I'm- I'm so sorry-"
"Estrella, you're not mentally prepared for a kid!" She kept screaming at me, and Jae raised his eyebrow. "You can't raise one, I know you can't. How could you get knocked up by the same person who called me a mudblood. You need-"
"Don't say what I think you're gonna say," Jae stepped forward, a glare on his face and even I was taken back. I'd never seen him so mad. "It's jot your decision to make, Granger."
Hermione looked at me dead in the eye, "I want you to get rid of it. Right now."
