INEFFABLE | kaz brekker

chapter thirteen

The Crows were ducked away in a shed, as safe as they could be for the moment. Kaz had emptied his pockets, placing everything he had on the table. A couple Ravkan coins and bills, and not much else.

Inej was grimacing. "Is this all we have left?"

She groaned, clutching her side, taking a deep breath. "Jesper, my bag."

She pulled up her shirt to reveal a deep wound on her abdomen just as Jesper had turned around. He gagged, averting his eyes.

"Mother of Saints."

Elham chuckled, helping Inej lean back against a stack of hay on the floor so she could have better access to the wound. She lowered her to the ground, helping hold her shirt up, not missing Kaz's look of concern. She turned back to Inej, watching her grab things out of her bag.

"It's not healing on its own. I need to stitch it."

Elham glanced at Kaz and Jesper's uneasy faces, giving them a grin.

"Don't worry, I happen to specialize in stab wounds. Granted, I'm normally on the other side of them, but that's alright, I've had enough sticks myself to know how to stitch them up."

Kaz turned his head away as Elham threaded the needle, handing it to Inej. "How long before you can travel."

Inej was quick to respond. "Not long. Where?"

"Ketterdam."

Elham whipped around to face him, but he wouldn't meet her eyes. Earlier, she was so sure that they'd either get the kruge, and she'd be safe from the Menagerie, or they wouldn't make it back to Ketterdam, and it wouldn't matter whether they got it or not. But to go back now, and empty handed, she would almost certainly have to go.

"Between our dwindling funds, lack of time, and conflicting interests, it's time we cut our losses."

He moved to go outside, and Elham called after him. "Kaz."

He didn't look at her, stepping out the door.

"Kaz!"

He was already gone.

Jesper scoffed. "I guess the Bastard misses the Barrel."

Elham shook her head, willing the tears not to fall, turning her attention back to Inej. "Hey, love. Let's get this fixed, yeah?"

Inej took a deep breath as Elham grabbed the needle, hooking it through her skin. She pulled the skin taught, trying to get it done as quickly as she could.

Jesper groaned, gagging, having to turn his head.

Inej scoffed. "You can watch a bullet tear through a man, but a needle's too much."

"It...yeah, well, you see, bullets are bam, in and out. That's...just...ugh!"

Elham laughed, letting Inej take the needle and finish it up. Jesper was still groaning.

"Where'd you learn to do that?"

"When I was at the Menagerie."

"Yeah, but why would you...oh. That's dark."

"Which is why I can't go back."

Elham's smile fell from her face, her laughter dying. It was bad enough that Inej had to go through all of that pain, but now it was looking like she would have to as well. She knew she would be able to handle it, and even if she couldn't, she would go on anyway. Heleen would get what was coming to her one way or another.

Elham swallowed. "You're not going back. You know that."

Inej's eyes clouded, and Elham watched her try and fight tears. She quickly gave her a smile, grabbing her hand.