Numb- Demi Lovato and Nick Jonas

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Nick 

       The feeling I got when Demi told me she'd try to work it out with me was incredible. I wanted to kiss her every second and hold onto her forever. I could tell she was still a bit nervous, because she would avoid me a bit. Now, was one of those times. I had come over in the morning, but Demi kept running around the house, making phone calls and trying to keep her busy. Now, I found her in the kitchen, glasses on the bridge of her nose, with her hair swept loosely into a wispy bun. I walked up from behind her, and placed my hand on the counter on both sides of her, kissing the nape of her neck softly. 

Demi tensed, but didn't look at me, "What is it?" 

I sighed and rested my chin on her shoulder, "It's supposed to be your day off." 

She shook her head, "I don't have days off. I have lighter days, but I don't have a day off." 

I wrapped my arms around her waist, "Well now you do." I tightened my hold on her, and lifted her into the air, carrying her away from her work. 

"Nick! Put me down!" Demi ordered, annoyance obvious in her voice as she squirmed in my arms. I popped her up over my shoulder and smacked her butt lightly as I went into the bedroom. She had a furious, yet hilarious, expression on her face as I gently tossed her down on the bed, a playful smile on my face. 

"Nick come on this is not funny, I have work to do." 

I shook my head, "Works over. You've been avoiding me all day." 

She crossed her arms, "No, I haven't." 

I sat down across from her, "Yes you have. I want to spend time with you. Come on Dems, we can pick out a movie, order some takeout..." 

Demi rolled her eyes, "If I say yes will you go away?" 

I flinched, "I guess I'll leave then." 

As I got up and began walking to the door Demi rubbed her face and groaned, "Nick, wait." I looked at her and allowed her to grab my hand, pulling me onto the bed so I was leaning against the headboard as she straddled my thighs and I put my hands on her waist. "I'm sorry." She whispered, placing her hands on my chest and and rubbing my shoulders, "I'm just stressed out a bit and I'm nervous because I'm trying my best to take down walls, but you being so... you is making that very difficult." 

I furrowed my brow, "What do you mean me being 'me'?" 

Demi sighed, "You're just... you! You're funny and smart, and affectionate and loving and make me feel so many things I've been fighting for far too long." 

I sat up a bit and pulled her closer to me, "Demi you don't have to stop those feelings. Those feelings are new to me too, and I'm channeling them into wanting to be with you. The amount of times I've wanted to grab you and kiss you in just the past couple of hours is profound to me." 

Demi leaned down, pressing her lips to mine, cutting me off abruptly. I felt myself getting excited as she began to kiss me deeper and press her body against mine. I groaned, rolling over so I was on top, letting her feel some of my weight as we ground against each other. Demi suddenly froze and pulled away. 

"I'm sorry." I apologized instantly. 

"No it's okay." She held onto my shoulders so I couldn't move off of her. "THis is just frustrating to me. We've had sex before. Why does it feel so foreign to kiss you?" 

I smiled softly at her, "Because it's a different kiss. You're used to kissing me while we're ripping each other's clothes off. Now, it's for different reasons. It feels foreign because it is foreign." 

Demi leaned her head back against the pillows, "I'm sorry." 

I smiled and rolled onto my side, leaning down to kiss her nose, "Don't be sorry Dems. Obviously we're going to need to be patient with each other." 

She shook her head, "I know. I've just let myself put up too many walls around me, I can't even take them down. I've screwed myself." 

I shook my head, "Don't talk like that. We can do this together. Right now. Let's knock down a wall together." 

She furrowed her brow, "What do you mean?" 

I smiled, "What's one thing you're afraid of telling me, or doing with me?" 

Demi looked down, "I'm scared of letting you into my past. I know you've been there for me, and are there for me through so many things, but there is so much you don't know." 

I nodded, "Okay, that makes sense... Now tell me one thing that you're comfortable with sharing." 

Demi looked at her hand, "I-I..." 

I nodded and kissed her forehead, "It's okay Dems, you can trust me. It's just me, It's Nick." 

She let out a long breath and her bottom lip quivered as she looked into my eyes, "Just promise me you won't see me any differently." 

I shook my head, "I can't promise that. Because whatever you tell me will show me that you've gotten and stronger and I'll admire you more for it." 

Demi nodded again and took a deep breath. 

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