Escape to Cali

Chapter 5

I woke up screaming. I shot out of bed and ran to the corner. I was in the living room. I was surrounded by really confused and concerned people. I just kept screaming. I couldn’t stop. I couldn’t breath either. Yep, this officaly suckes. I want my dad to come hug me. I miss my mom.

“Chelsea? Have you been taking your medication?” Eva asked.

“No. I’m out. The therapist wanted me to stop taking them once I was out.” I said.

“We need to find you therapist. One here that won’t give up on you.” Jordan said.

“No. I don’t want another one. You guys don’t know what they do to me. They make me feel like it’s my fault.” I said. Soon the tears started to fall.

“Chelsea, we need to get you help. This is your second time crying in two days. That’s not right for you.” Jaggar said.

“Three time.” Khan mumbled.

“What did you say?” Isabella asked.

“Does it matter?” Khan asked.

“He said it is my third time crying in two days. I had a melt down when we went to get paint. Speaking of paint lets go finish my room.” I said. I really want to get off this topic. I want to try to be as normal as I can. I don’t want to have to take medicine to make me sleep and to keep me from having hallucinations. I want to feel normal.

“Yeah lets all go help. We can have fun together.” Khan said. I cringed a little. The girls saw it.

“Chelsea, you are allowed to have fun. Forget what that old perv told you” Kayla said.

“Forget what the old perv said to me? Are you kidding me right now? I will never forget. It will alway haunt me that I was out for people’s taking. He caught me walking on the street right after I left you guys. The minute I left you guys he took me. I made myself available for him to get to me.” I said. I had no tears. I was mad, really mad.

“Chelsea you can’t keep blaming yourself. None of what happened to you is your fault.” Katara said.

“How isn’t it my fault? I was dating an older guy. I knew what he wanted, but I still stayed with him. I could have given the kid up for adoption. I could have had Darrius locked up for life. I should have just stayed with you guys that night. I should have never yelled at my dad. I shouldn't have let him leave. I should have followed my mom;s instructions on to keep eating, but I didn’t. It is my fault I have a kid, that I was kidnapped, that my dad left, that my parents split up, and it’s my fault I became anorectic. It is all my fault. Just leave me alone.” I said. I just want everything to go back to the way it was before. I ran up to one of the rooms close to mine and slammed the door. I ran to the bed. I cried, then I heard a knock

“Go away. I want to be alone.” I yelled. They didn’t listen. Instead they came into the room and sat on the bed.

“Do you really want to be alone?” Khan asked. I just now remember telling him that when I want to be alone I really want someone to be there  with me.

He pulled me into his arms and we laid there for a long time. Me crying and him just holding onto me. Soon I wiped my eyes and pushed myself off of him.

“You're done already? I was hoping for longer.” He said with a smile. I smiled back. I got a boost of confidence and kissed him. He kissed me back, slowly at first then really deep.

I pulled back and smiled. I really like Khan. We are leaving tomorrow to get my son. Just him and I. This is going to be fun.

“Hey Chelsea?” Khan asked slowly.

“Yeah?” I asked into his chest.

“Go out with me when we get back.” He said. That’s right. He told me to. He didn’t give me the option. I smiled even more.

“Of course I will.” I said and we kissed again.

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Hey guys, I have been havin fun wrighting this book. I hope you enjoy it. My ideas are starting to die. I hope I will be able to get them all down before I forget. THe plan keeps changing .

My next update?? I dont' know. That is a good question for myself. I guess you will just have to wait and find out.