How could you? (Third book in Life series)

All I've Got

Spencer and I had been fighting every since I found out that Megan was his ex. I wanted her no where near my wedding and he tried to defend her! Are you kidding me.

A couple weeks after I had found out that she was his ex, I got so annoyed that I decided to go stay at Ambers for a couple nights. The night that I came back to Spencer's I saw an extra car out in the driveway.

I unlocked the door and didn't see Spencer but heard noises coming from the bedroom. I slowly walked back there and the noises got longer. "Oh oh- yes!". I opened the door to see Megan on top of him riding him. He saw me and threw her off of her as I turned around to leave. "Shelby wait!!". I said nothing as I got to my car and drove off. The tears fell and I felt betrayed. Why the fuck do you ask me to marry you if you don't want to be with me!

I was broken

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The rained poured down my face as I knocked on his door. I waited a moment then turned around and began to walk away when I heard the door open. "Shel?". I turned around toward him. "What are you doing in the rain?". I started to cry. "Come inside". I walked past him threw the door and instantly fell to my knees crying. "He cheated on me. I caught him. And I'm not so sure it's the first time". He sighed. "Your soaking wet, let me get a towel and some clothes for you. We can talk then". He walked upstairs and came back. I couldn't get up. I just kept crying. He kneed down next to me and started drying my hair. "Take these and go change". He lifted me to me to my feet and I grabbed the clothes heading to the bathroom.

When I came out he was in the kitchen. "Here is some tea for you. So tell me what happened". "I wanted to see him so I went over to the house. I couldn't find him but as I got closer to the bedroom I heard sex noises, I opened the door to find him with Megan". He blinked in shock. "God she is a horrible fucking person and so is he". I started to cry again when he grabbed me and pulled me into his chest making the tears just over flow. "You were right. This was stupid. I shouldn't have said yes. I barely knew him well enough. And now I'm screwed". He rubbed my back. "There will be other guys shel". "No I'm screwed because of him. I'm screwed because I put my house on the market because we were suppose to move in together. My house has been sold. I have to be out in a week". He hugged me tighter. "Stay with me till you get a new house or apartment". I let go of him and walked to the couch and sat down. "I don't know Chris. I would feel like a burden". "Oh hush, you wouldn't be a burden. Plus it would be nice to have you around". I attempted to smile even though it didn't work it made him smile. "Don't seem to have much of another choice".

He came and sat down next to me. "Can we watch a movie? Something to get my mind off of this". He turned on the tv as the thunder cracked and made me jump. He snickered. "Shut up". "What I didn't say anything". He turned on a Friday the 13th movie and we just sat there until I broke the silence. "Ya know, I don't even think I was IN love. I cared and had love for him but I guess I was in such a rush to feel loved again". I looked at Chris who almost looked like he was thinking of something to say. I rested my head on his shoulder and shut my eyes. "Will you do me a favor?". He nodded. "Of course. Anything". I sat up. "Answer some questions. Honestly". He nodded. "Did you lie to me in the bus about your feelings?". "Yes". "Why?". "Cause I didn't want to hurt you and I don't deserve you". "Close your eyes". "What?". "Just do it please". He closed his eyes and I crawled over to where he was sitting and took a deep breath as I looked at him. I touched the rough tiny stubble that was on his face from not shaving for a couple days. I climbed on him and lightly pressed my lips on his. He made a sound of slight shock in his throat for a second before he wrapped an arm around my waist pulling me closer. He deepened the kiss slight still keeping it light. God his lips were soft. I pulled away tracing his bottom lip with my thumb and smiling. He huffed and looked down. "Shel...". Oh fuck.. Here it comes. "Why did you do that?". I felt a couple tears start forming. My voice started to crack lowly as I tried to talk.