How could you? (Third book in Life series)

Misery Loves Company

Everything sucked after I moved out. Pregnancy was hard alone, I couldn't stop crying at the fact that he had stabbed me in the back and it took weeks to get out of bed.

Unfortunately by the time that I got out of bed, the twins were ready to come and it was an unbearable pain. Thank god Chris was by my side and all the guys were supporting us from the waiting room. For a brief moment we felt like a family. Watching him stare at those boys with love in his eyes was beautiful. I could have been completely happy... If I could have forgiven him. But I couldnt.

It was ungodly hard to stay back at his place. I didn't want to but he begged me to stay until I was healed from the c section. He would take care of the babies and he would help me out of bed which was super helpful. Once it came time to go back to my place he asked me to stay and I wouldnt. I felt awful but we would never work out.. 

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I sighed as I chased the boys around trying to get them ready.

"Kyler! Kevin! Come on!".

They smiled and laughed as they ran opposite directions away from me. Even if they were cute, they were getting on my nerves. I  finally got a hold of the twins and got their clothes on them which exhausted me. I groaned as I got them in the car.

"Alright boys your going to visit dad"

They started screaming of excitement. I loved how their eyes lit up when they saw him after going long periods of time of without seeing him. Grant it, Chris would always call them every night and face time with them but its still not the same.

I pulled up to the house and parked in the drive way. "Mom! Mom get us out please!". I smiled at the boys and unbuckled both of them. "Boys!". They jumped down and ran to him and jumped into his arms for a hug. I stood there and he looked at me and smirked as he set the boys down. " You look good". "Thank you... So I will be picking them up in a couple weeks. Call me if you need anything". "We will be alright". I nodded and kissed the boys one more time before getting in my car an pulling away.

~*~

Two weeks had passed and the boys were back home with me. They couldn't help but talk about Chris all the time after they came home. God they loved him.

I shut off the light as I started to walk out of their room. ".. Mommy". I turned back around and looked at my tired boys. " what baby?". "Why doesn't daddy live with us?". I sighed as I sat down on Kyler's bed. "Because mommy and daddy aren't together but that doesn't mean that we don't love you both very much. You mean everything to us". " Don't you love daddy too?". "It's late. You need to go to bed now". I stood up and shut the door quietly behind me.

I sat down and sighed at the silence. I looked at the pictures on the wall and couldn't help but wonder what it would like with Chris in the family portrait. A couple tears slipped out and slid down my cheek. " Why do I feel like this still?". I unlocked my phone and dialed the first person I could think of.

"Hey.... It's me. Could you come over? No, no.. I'm fine. Thanks"

~*~

A little bit later there was a knock on my door. I put out my cigarette and got up to answer the door. "Hey Ricky". He walked threw the door. "Everything ok?". I nodded. " Don't lie". "Alright. I'm not ok. One of the twins asked me why we didn't live with Chris and if I loved him". "Ouch. What did you say?". "I told them it was past bed time". " Want to tell me why I'm here?". "I can't get him out of my head, still. And I'm confused". "Come on shel. You and I both know you are still in love with him. You both fucked up, grant it he fucked up worse but still. You should be together or at least go talk". " How?". "Just fucking go. I'll stay here and take care of the twins if they wake up". " But its late". "Just go!!".

Rick started to push me out the door and shut it behind me. "Well shit". I stood there for a moment when my phone buzzed with a text.

Move your butt and go!

Dang he can be bossy. I got in my car and started to head to Chris house. I took a deep breath as I pulled up the house. I dont think I could do this. I knocked on the door twice as I looked back at my car. Maybe he isn't home? A moment after I thought that, a light turned on inside.

Run shel, just turn back around and go home!

I took a deep breath as the door opened to a shirtless Chris. He looked exhausted as he yawned. "Shel what are you doing here? Are the boys ok?". I nodded. " I just needed to talk to you but its too late".

He waved to come in as he yawned. I walked in and he shut the door behind me. "Are you ok?". I took a deep breath and tried not to cry. I shook my head no. "What's going on? Tell me what's wrong". A tear fell down my cheek and I wiped it away. "I made a huge mistake. I miss you..".

He just looked at me for a moment before grabbing me and pulling me into his chest as he hugged me tightly. "I miss you too. I'm so sorry about everything that I've put you threw. I would kill to have you and the twins both in my life. I want my family, don't you?". "Yes I do. I want my family together. I'm miserable without you".

He lift my chin and kissed me softly.

"Come back home. You and the boys can move in here and we will start over. I'll never hurt you again and I'll tell you everyday how much I appreciate you"

I hugged him tightly and smiled as I smelled his sweet scent.

"Let's go back to your place and in the morning we can start packing everything up so you can move in"

He let go of me, tossed on a shirt and slipped on his shoes. He grabbed my hand tightly as he happily headed to the car.

Didn't say anything as we held hands and felt the crisp night air  against our skin. He tightened his grabbed as he looked at me and smiled.

God I love him.

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Well this is the end of the series. I know it wasn't the best ending but I ran out of ideas at the end. I apologize lol. Please check out my other stories to come. Those I actually have better endings for I promise!

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