How could you? (Third book in Life series)

Twins

I was in utter shock at the news.

Twins

I sat on the bed just looking at the picture of the ultrasound. Two small circles with babies in them. To make this worse, I hadn't told Chris. Just thinking about this makes me sick.

Yup I have to vomit

I ran to the bathroom and puked. Morning sickness sucks but truthfully I couldn't even call it morning sickness, I was sick ALL the time. Morning to night. I could barely keep anything down. How was I going to take a full pregnancy? I can't.

When my head was in the toilet my phone started to go off. I grabbed it from next to me and answered, doing my best not to throw up.

"Hey Shel, how are you? Are you ok?"

I tried not to bawl my eyes out to Chris

"I'm okay... No actually I'm not. Im sick and I just want to cry. Chris I need you... Or someone. I can't do this alone right now"

"Oh shel, I'm so sorry. I feel terrible not being there to help you. Good news is ill be home in a little under a month. We have to cut our tour short".

A month... Four weeks to do this by myself

"Chris that's four weeks by myself. Morning sickness and everything else ALONE".

"I'm sorry! Okay, I feel bad. Please don't make me feel worse. How about you tell Ashley and beg her not to tell Balz. Have her stay at my place as much as she can. The dogs can stay too".

We said good bye and I couldn't help but cry.

I called Ashley and told her that I needed her and that it was important. She said she would be over an in hour. Maybe I could actually get some sleep before he got here. I wiped my face off and got a glass of water before heading to Chris room. I changed into a tank top, shorts, one of Chris zip up jackets and hopped in bed.

******

"Shel sweetie wake up". I opened my eyes to Ashley sitting on the bed looking at me. "I called but you didn't answer". "Sorry I'm exhausted". She smiled and leaned against the head board. "So what's up. You sounded off when we talked". I sat up next to her and just started crying into my hands. "Shel. What's wrong!". She frowned. "Promise you will tell no one! Not even balz!". She nodded. "I mean it!". "Yes, I promise I won't tell a soul".

I stood up and took a deep breath as I unzipped my jacket. "Ok.. What am I looking at?". I looked down at my stomach and back at her. Her eyes traveled to my stomach. I turned to the side. "What exactly are you saying... Are you saying what your implying?". "Yes". "How... What... When did this happen!". "I'm 9 weeks...ish". She looked confused. "But you've been living with Chr- holy fuck balls! Seriously! Does he know?". I nodded. "Yes he knows, we haven't told a soul. I just found out like two and a half weeks ago. But there is something I didn't tell him". "What?". "I'm pregnant... With twins". She held her hand to her heart in a shocked look. "Oh my shit". "I don't know how to tell him. I might wait till he gets back from tour". "Shel you will be 15 or 16 weeks pregnant with twins... You will be able to tell by then! I would tell him soon before he comes back. What about the other guys?". "Well I guess we will just surprise them but I wondered if you could stay with me till they come back?". She thought for a second. "Sure but you have to tell Chris and now". "Damn you Ashley".

I dialed Chris number and hoped he didn't answer but he did.

"Hey shel, you alright. Did you tell Ashely?".
"Listen I told her but I need to tell you something... I had an ultra sound and.."
I paused and looked at me who was motioning me to go on
"Go on please, I have to finish getting ready"
I took a deep breath and quickly spilled my words.
"I found out that I'm pregnant with twins"
He was silent for a moment and coughed.
"I need to go. I'll text you".

"Well that went absolutely horrible. He said I need to go, I'll text you". She sighed as I crawled back into bed with her. I cuddled up next to her. She rubbed my back. "It will be okay". "I think I need to get ahold of Spencer". She hardened her eyebrows. "Why?". "Think about it Ashley. That's around the time I just moved in so It could be Spencer's just as much as Chris. I think this week I need to go tell him but I can't go alone". She rolled her eyes. "Fine".

*****

I ended up going to talk to him a couple days later Ashley ended up not being able to go with me.

I pulled up in front of his house and just sat in my car for a moment. I really didn't want to tell him but he had a right to know right?

I walked up to the door and knocked.

He opened the door shocked.

"Shelby, what are you doing here? Come in".

He opened the door and I stepped inside. All I can think of is walking into him having sex with Megan.

"What a surprise, what are you doing here?"
"Well what I have to say is... Kind of hard. Actually I don't think I can say it".

I handed him the ultrasound and he looked at it quickly like it was a joke as he shrugged his shoulders. "What's this?". I pointed at the paper with my name on it. "This is my ultrasound. And you could possibly be the father". He smiled widely. "Your pregnant? How far- wait did you say possibly?". "Yes I'm over two months along. About the time I moved out and I say possibly because obliviously I had sex with someone after I moved". He looked heart broken for a move but quickly turned to anger. "You've got to be fucking kidding me!". "We weren't together when I had sex with someone else and if you forget you were balls deep in Megan to even think about me. Now I came here to do the right thing and I have an appointment in an hour to get a DNA test but I would need you to go with me". He growled. "Fine and if it isn't then we can part ways for good". "fine by me".

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We had went to the doctors appointment together and it was miserable. They inserted a needle in the sack of the babies and took DNA from them and compared to it to Spencer's DNA.

But I am happy to say, it wasn't Spencer's but that meant my twins are definitely Chris's.

I took some time off of work because I was feeling awful. Chris and everyone comes home tonight and were suppose to meet them at the airport but I wasn't going to meet them because of how miserable I had been feeling. Also the fact that we still had told everyone yet.

I cooked up some spicy beef and broccoli with side of rice for me and Chris for dinner and even though his plane hadn't even landed yet. I saved him leftovers with a little note on the refrigerator before I headed upstairs.

I changed into some shorts and one of Chris big shirts since they were the only comfortable thing right now. You could tell that I was definitely pregnant, especially with twins. I mean. I'm still little but my belly is noticeable.

I rubbed my stomach as I felt movement. I sighed as I laid down and shut my eyes.

I couldn't help but silently cry to myself. Pregnancy was hard on me. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally.