Westbane

Episode 9. 30 The Originals

Elfrida

​​I would be lying if I said I was okay.

I'd imagined myself visiting the Westbane park a couple of times, and all those times I imagined it, I never once thought I'd be seeking the calmness of the park to ease the dread that slowly pulled at the end of my resolve.

I can't believe that a few months before, I had been really thankful for finding Westbane, but now, I wish I never found this place. I wish I never moved and foolishly believed my life could be better than what it once was.

I wish I never filled myself with false hopes... hopes of finally living life like a normal person. If I hadn't thought so highly of my life, I wouldn't be here now, I wouldn't be in this position; broken, disappointed and confused, more confused than I have ever been in years.

The calm of the night wasn't even doing anything to lessen the confusion, anger and hurt I felt now.

In fact, I don't think anything can make it all go away.

This was my life, and I was back to square one.

I suppressed a scoff. Did I ever take a step out of that square in the first place? Maybe I imagined steps leading out, only to jump over an imaginary wall and land in the middle of the same square again, believing I made progress.

A familiar feeling swept through me, making me feel complete, it was almost like I had finally gotten the answer to the questions tormenting me.

But I didn't want this kind of answer... I didn't want him... or did I?

I didn't have to look to know that Kai had taken the spot beside me on the bench. He didn't speak a word, so I decided to speak.

"Tired of sitting on your throne?" I asked.

I could feel his eyes on the side of my face. "Are you okay?"

"I'm super." I lied, but I knew he knew that I was lying, we felt each other's feelings after all.

He let out a breath. "There's something I have to tell you." He spoke, but I knew already... What he wanted to tell me was the reason why I lost the zeal to even fight for anything anymore.

"Can we go talk somewhere else?" he asked.

"Don't bother, Kai... I know everything."

That seemed to take him by surprise.

"Yesterday, I would have done anything and everything to know where I come from... who I am, what my real last name is... what my mother or father looked like... I would have gone to any length to be part of some sort of family. But now, I'm not so sure anymore."

"Who told you about Sama'el?"

"Does it matter who told me? you're after all going to kill me, so there's no point in all of that."

He didn't say anything after that.

"Now I know that I am really bad luck walking... everything terrible that has ever happened to all those I came in contact with, was indeed my fault. At least there's an explanation to that now." I said, not even able to cry. I've been doing a lot of that lately. "So how are you gonna do it? How are you gonna kill me?"

His hand covered mine on my lap, the warmth setting a pace for my heart as sensations travelled up my palm throughout my body.

I looked over at him, getting lost in his eyes.

"I will never hurt you, Elfie... ever." He assured me.

"But the angels—"

"Who told you all of this?" He asked again.