love finds its way around

Chapter 11

I'm in his car, Derrick's car to be exact. This time I'm not looking out the window, I'm staring straight ahead keeping my gaze just at the front though I can feel Derrick sparing me glances.

"I'm not feeling okay" I hear Derrick say breaking the awkward silence between us.

I turn to look at him catching his contact. He has an expression I can't read, somewhat pain, regret and anger mixed together. I wonder what's wrong.

I turn back to look straight. I shouldn't be bothered, it's not my duty to worry about him....it's Sonia's.

"I want to go somewhere and I want you to come with me" he says
"I can't go with you, I need to get back home" I protest, after my little meeting with Sonia at the party I don't think going anywhere is the best option especially going with him.

He masks his pained look with a smirk "it's not for you to decide" he say taking a turn.

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He packs his car in a somewhat deserted place. At the left side is a turning leading to a forest of bamboo trees, tall ones at that.

I help myself out of Derrick's car he does same too. We start walking to the part of the bamboo forest. It's creepy when it's late in the evening.

"Where are you taking me, anybody can call this a fashioned way of kidnapping" I say feeling tired of walking this creepy path.

"I think you should rephrase that to being kidnapped by prince charming that's the best way to put it you know" he flashes me his let's say charming smile yes it's charming.

I scoff rolling my eyes "so you come to this creepy forest when you're not feeling okay, I take it you're a weirdo" I point out looking around trying to be careful of any forest insects or animals you know I'm not such a forest person.

"A sexy weirdo would be the appealing way to put it and we'd soon get to the clearance, you just trust me" he says

I feel a spark in me at the sound of the 'trust me' part.

"Here hold my hands you'd be fine" he says stretching out his hands to me. I slowly take it and I'm consumed by his usual warmth, the foreign feeling takes place again. My heart beat pumps unsteadily in my chest and I wonder if he feels the same way well he wouldn't definitely , it's just me having this foreign weird feeling I know nothing of.

We arrive at the clearance and I'm in awe right now, it's really beautiful. I'm sure it would look better in broad daylight. Everywhere is filled with little grasses and flowers plus the big waterfall, it's beautiful also it would be nice to lay down on the grass looking at the stars with the fragrance of beautiful flowers.

"How did you find this place" I ask still looking around.

"Well my mom showed it to me, it's hers" he says with a sad sigh. I watch him lie on the grass with his hands behind his neck then it hit me I didn't see his mom at the party earlier

"Did she travel? I mean I didn't see her at the party" I say going to lie beside but I made sure there's space between us which he kinda noticed, I guess.

"She'd have been there or maybe not cause she wouldn't like the idea of me having an arranged marriage" he mutters which I heard

"Wait past tense does that mean she's..." I let my voice trail out. The silence that comes next answers my question or intended question

"I'm sorry" I say slowly looking at him. He's just staring at the sky with a blank expression

"Don't be. I still feel her presence in this place though" he shrugs.

I want to give him a hug right now and comfort him but I can't, it won't be right.

He turns to me looking straight at me, into my eyes. "I don't want to get married to Sonia, I really don't want it"

I feel my heart beat skip at his words....why is he telling me this.

He turns back to look at the sky. "I did a regretful thing once you know. It was when my dad told me about Sonia for the first time, I told him I don't want what he's planning and I want to choose myself. With his temper, he got angry saying mean things and also brought up my late mom" he pauses for a bit

I notice he's getting upset, I place my hands on his giving it a gentle squeeze.

"I left the house out of anger that night and the best place I could go to was a club. Well that's where my mistake was. I got drunk you know not knowing what I was doing anymore I raped someone. No one knows this I didn't mean to and I feel very regretful, I can't even recognize her to look for her." He explains looking up at me

I look at him seeing the pain in his expression, he feels bad for what he did....plus he doesn't want Sonia.

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