𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘦 ~ dnf

3.

| sapnap | oct. 23rd

george,
i don't know what to do

you're gone
but dream thinks you're not
i'm afraid he's gone crazy
he's gone completely haywire
he's been so incredibly different
since you left

it's scaring me
if i'm honest

i just wish you didn't die
i wish you were still alive
i wish,
you were still here.
because i miss you

you're the one who pulled dream together
the one that made him happier
than he's ever been.

it hurts,
to see him back to his old,
selfish,
stingy self
but i know he's hurting a lot too
maybe even more than i

i miss you too,
but he doesn't realize
that you're gone.

when will he realize?

i tried to tell him
just earlier today
when we went out for lunch,
he lashed out on me

i'm assuming,
the same way he did to you
the day you went missing.

it was terrifying
i could see how you would've been scared
why you left
but what i don't understand is,
why didn't you come back?
where is your body?
where did you die?

they haven't found your body still
and i'm so confused
how can they say you're dead
without knowing where your body lays?
i'm not saying i believe dream,
because he's crazy as hell,
but maybe what i'm trying to get at is,
i understand why he thinks you're not dead
why he thinks you're still alive

because your body hasn't been found
but i'm sure,
since they're police
and professional investigators,
that they know what they're talking about
and you are dead.

because how can you be alive?
you've been gone a year
there's no way,
you've survived on your own
out in the woods
and in the abyss of nature
for that long

i hate to say it
but you're gone
and dream,
would say the opposite.

george,
dream told me something
very important today
he said
that he loved you
now i have to ask but,
did you love him too?

that's so stupid of me to ask
because you won't read this
nor are you able to respond
but i just wonder,
did you love him too?

i know you barely told me anything
or about how you felt
but i know,
that you cared a lot
about dream.

you always told me
how he made you feel
how hugging him
and holding his hand
made you feel so safe

i remember
when you told me
how one day
when you and dream
were 'hanging out'
in that treehouse of your guy's,

(i say that because
i KNOW
you guys weren't just "hanging out"
in a treehouse
all alone
doing nothing but talking
you deffo fucked eachother
i'm just sayin')

[i'm just kidding george, i know you and dream didn't fuck] - sapnap

he laid in your lap
as you two watched the sunset
together.