𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘦 ~ dnf

11.

| sapnap | dec. 23rd

hey,
george.

i was right,
about you being dead.

but if i'm honest,
i actually kinda thought
that there was a possibility
you could've been alive.

i cant believe
i actually started
to believe dream
when he said
that you were alive.

i started to think
that maybe,
he was right.

because they hadn't
found your body
and there was no way
that they could prove your death
without it.

but now i realize,
that was all a stupid lie
a lie i told myself
so i could keep going.

i should've listened
to my instincts
i should've never
started to believe dream
because he's crazy
and now i'm starting to think
that maybe i'm the crazy one.

there for awhile,
i wanted to believe that there was a chance
you were alive
i wanted to believe
that you weren't dead.

i wanted to believe dream.

i kept having to remind myself
that you were in fact,
dead.

this entire time
you had been dead.

i was right all along
but i wish i wasn't.

i wish you were alive,
george
i seriously do.

when i think back
to all the conversations
i've had with dream,
i start to realize
how bad of a friend i was.

i was seriously
so awful to dream
but i wanted him
to quit bringing you up
i wanted him to stop
fucking
talking about you.

because in all honesty,
when you died,
it hurt me just as much
as it did dream.

i wish i never yelled at him
i wish i never called him names
i wish i never told him
to stop looking for you.

if i hadn't told him to stop,
he could've found you
because you were near.

if i hadn't told him
to let you go,
he would still be waiting
for you.

if i hadn't told him
to stop waiting,
that treehouse of yours
wouldn't
be burned down.

oh yeah,
i don't know if you knew this or not
but that tree house of you and dream's?
he burned it.
dream fucking burned the treehouse.

i know how much hard work
and effort was put into that house
how many days
you guys spent
working on it,
together.

but,
it's gone now
and only a memory.

it's burned.

your forever home
is burned,
and turned to ash.

i don't get it
that place was literally a safe haven
for dream,
why did he burn it?

it was like the home
he never had,
but he burned it.
he burned his home
and i don't understand why he'd do that.