Promise(newtXreader Book 1)

Chapter 6(Part 2)

Chapter dedicated to wolfies_workz for voting, for reading, and for commenting on about every chapter of this story. It means a lot.
Newt's POV:
My family will be complete soon. A wife, a house, complete. Except, something's missing. There's a gap in this. The sounds of tiny feet running around the house..... Children. That's it, children, a pet too, maybe. But children, that's what could complete this gap.
I pull (y/n) closer to me, just to feel nothing. I open my eyes and look around the bed, no one. No one in the room. I get out of bed and walk out of the room. I hear crying coming for the bathroom. The door was open an the light was on.
"(y/n)?" I call and open the door wider. "(y/n)! What is this?!" I ask kneeling next to her.
"I'm sorry," she cried. I grabbed her arm. "Please Newt, leave, I don't want you here."
"I'm not leaving," I say looking at her wrist. "Why?"
"I don't think I'm ready Newt," (y/n) cried.
"Ready for what?"
"For this! Us, Newt!" She starts to yell. "I'm sorry, Im just not ready to love someone when I can't love myself!"
"I'm not going to leave you (y/n), I'm going to love you, bloody or not, I will love you," I said taking the thing she used. "I'll treat myself like you treat yourself," I push it into my wrist.
"Newt! Stop!" She cries. "Don't hurt yourself!"
"But you hurt yourself," I say. "Why is it wrong if I do it?"
"Because it's awful to watch blood come out of you!" (y/n) says.
"Now you know how I feel when you hurt yourself," I say standing up. I pick her up bridal style and carry her back to our bed. "I'm not going to let you go back into that bathroom with that razor."

Your POV:
"Please, don't ever leave me," I say still crying.
"I wont," he whispers. I feel the bed move as he gets on.
"I love your voice," I say moving so I could face him. "It makes me feel safe."
"I like your wrists," he says.
"Why?" I ask nervously.
"Because they show me, all these scars show me, that you kept going even though the road was rocky," he says kissing my forehead.
"Can we move our wedding to next month?" I ask.
"Why?"
"Because I want you to officially be mine now, Newt," I say.
"I want you to officially be mine now too," he says pulling me closer to him.
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After an hour of not being able to sleep, I look at Newt. I turn on the lamp beside the bed and smile.
"You'll be the one to save me," I say to him even though he's sleeping. I scoot closer to him, what I see on his upper arm catches my eye. "What's this?" I ask looking at it. That's when I recognize what's on his arm.

Cuts.
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There might be a chapter tomorrow, there might not. Reason is because my nose burns like crazy and it's leading to my stomach hurting, and now my ribcage is hurting as well. Depends on when I go to the hospital for this. Hopefully there will be a chapter but for now, I don't think there will be one. Sorry.