Promise(newtXreader Book 1)

Chapter 9

Your POV:
I woke up early in the morning. It was only 7:23am and Newt was already gone. I looked around the room but he wasn't here. I got out of bed and quickly got changed before heading downstairs. I stop when I see the bathroom lights on.
"Newt? You in there?" I knock on the door. There was no answer. "Newt?"

Newt's POV:
"Newt? You in there?" (y/n) asks. She knocks on the door. "Newt?"
I ignore her and continue. I dig it into my skin, on my upper arm so it's harder for the to find it.
"Newt, please talk to me," she sounded like she was going to cry.
"I'll be right out, (y/n)," I finally answer. I take the razor out and pull my sleeve down after putting on bandages. I put away the razor quickly then I open the door to find a worried (y/n).
"Is everything alright?" She asks.
"Y-yeah," I say.
"Okay then," she kisses my cheek before she returns to the room. I sigh and look back into the bathroom.

"What's this?" Alby asks after I take off my hoodie. "Why do you have cuts?"
"Reminds me of how I survive everyday in this bloody maze," I say.
"First you jump off the wall and now cuts? What's going on Newt?" His voice was filled with worry. But I didn't want to say.
"I want to remember no matter what happened, I survived this maze, even if it means dying by grievers," I explain.
"You can't hurt yourself," he looks down. When he looks back up, he looked as if he was going to cry.
"I won't," I say and we hug.

"Alby!" Thomas yelled as he tried to pull him back from the griever. "Alby!"
I just stood there, terrified, not helping. Alby, my best friend, died. I could've helped pull him back but I didn't. I just stood and watched. I should've told him that I wanted to die because I hated the maze. Should've told him everything. Then, he might still be alive. I see Minho, Thomas, Teresa, Brenda, Jorge, and other gladers nowadays. Except Alby.
I could've saved Alby.

I shake my head and close the bathroom door. I follow (y/n) into the room. I only hurt myself because I didn't help save Alby when I could've. Because of me, he's gone.