What is love

Chapter 50 - New York

Sabrina Kiehl

I pick the suitcase out of my room, I was about to order an uber to go to the airport until I realize that Ansel has already awake. He's actually sitting in front of the island table, with a glass of water in front of him. He turns around to look at me walking out of the room,

"You're awake?" I asked.

"Yeah," he said.

"It's 4 in the morning," I said to him.

"Yeah," he said.

"I want to take you to the airport," he said.

"It's okay I'll order a taxi," I said to him.

"Come on, I've got up this early," he said.

"Alright, let's go," I said before he helps me with my suitcase.

He drives me to the airport, I watch the sky which is still dark, and the rode is empty, this is why I love early flight.

"When I was a little my dad always bought a morning flight,"

"Every morning when we're on the way to the airport I always look at the sky through the sunroof, just to look at the stars," I say.

"Yeah but all you can see now is pollution," he said which makes me lo down at him who's driving next to me, I laugh because it's sad but true.

"Well yeah," I said.

"Where are you staying there?" He asks.

"At my friend's apartment?"

"The guy that you were talking about?" He asked and he sounds more like surprised.

"Yeah, why?" I asked then he shakes his head.

"Nothing," he said.

"When are you going back?" He asked while his eyes still stick to the rode as the car entering the highway.

"If I decided to accept the offer guess I won't be home until I found the apartment," I said then he only nodded.

"You've talked to your family about this?" He asked then I look at him confusedly.

"No I haven't," I said then those eyes finally look at me.

"They won't care anymore," I said to him then he only stays in silent.

"Have you ever travel alone before?" He suddenly asked.

"This is my first time," I smile then he turns his head around to look at me with concern eyes.

"You sure you can do this?" He asked.

"Of course I can, my friend will pick me up once I got there or I'll take taxi whatever," I said to him.

"Be careful," he said to me then I nodded.

"Thank you," I said.

We finally got into the airport, he helps me to take my suitcase out of his car. I watch him take it out of his baggage until he puts it in front of me.

"Thank you Ansel," I smile at him as he's standing in front of me.

"Do you want me to stay here until the time comes?" He asked then I shake my head.

"No need to," I said.

"Alright," he sigh while his eyes are looking at me,

"Call me if you need anything," he said.

"Yeah, you too," I say.

"Okay I gotta go," I say before turning around.

He suddenly stops me by holding on my arm, he pulls me for a hug. It's a very warm hug, I can feel his strong arms wrapped around me just like he used to. I wrapped my arms around his torso while putting my chin on his shoulder, oh I missed this. I miss this kind of feelings, the feeling of safe and sound, and I know I'm going to miss this.

He pulls away before he puts his palm on my cheek to kiss my lips. I froze in surprised once he put his lips on mine, why does it feel so right? I hate the butterfly inside of my stomach when he does this to me, there's always spark and joy every time he does this. But today somehow this kind of spark only brings the tears out from my eyes.

I pull away once I realize that it's not right. He looks at me confusedly as my body froze. I stay in silent and I can't say a thing, I don't know how to react to the kiss. It was passionate and when he kisses my lips I feel like it was filled with love.

"I.., better go," I broke the silence between us before he started to take a step away from him.

I turn around while taking my suitcase with me, I got into the airport without a dare to look back. Because I know I won't be able to leave if I look back at him. I should've not kiss him back, everything that just happened make it 100% more confusing than it already was.

I walk into the airport, check myself in and here I am waiting for my flight in a lounge. I got myself a cup of tea while staring blankly at the glass wall in front of me, the clip of him kissing my lips keep replaying inside of my mind.

What I hate the most about everything that happened is he didn't say a thing, he didn't even care to explain or even say a thing or two about it. I started to think that those things he did before that make me fall in love with him might be just a game for fun for him?

I was looking at the glass wall when my phone rings, there is a message and when I look at it, it's Ansel who just texted me.

Ansel Renaldy:
Text me when you got there

I look at it and the message even make me more and more confused, everything about him and us is so confusing.