Way Too Much, Seriously...

*the story*

"This one is truly the starter point of this project. It's what started it all."

June tall tales is honestly my top three favorites off this project, I actually didn't know if I wanted to use this one as the first poem...but it made sense to.

This takes place back in 2020 (we all know how that year went for us), last year took a different turn for me though. As 2020 took so much away...it ended up giving me a story I can tell for ages.

"How did you come up with the title?"

Whenever I think about June of last year, I just remember losing my virginity. When I explained it to my friends when they asked what it was like; I just made up this scenario that it was something magical and special.

But it wasn't.

It was the most nerve wrecking, sort of painful and scary experience and it was nothing like the movies or songs *laughs*

Throughout that moment I just kept wondering about what we would be afterwards, because we weren't dating.

We were barely even close to the talking stage.

A lot happened even before the month of june but that's a story for another time.

So when I thought about the title I wanted it to be truthful.

And so June Tall Tales came to be.

A month full of tall tales.

"After all of that, the chain of unfortunate events happened."

It really did.

After that me and him continued to hook up at least three more times, but I didn't want it to go any further than it already had.

Because losing my virginity was something so unexpected, I never saw it coming.

It just happened because his cousin mentioned to him that if I did lose my virginity to anyone it would be him, I knew I trusted him and could be that open with him.

"How did the cousin know?"

I told him.

In my kitchen to be exact *laughs*

A friend of mine was visiting from out of town and he was invited, his cousin was in town as well and of course tagged along.

Me and him ended up play fighting at some point and he locked us in my room.

Though everyone thought we were probably hooking up, we were actually beating the shit out of each other until...yeah

"Until? *laughs*"

Well until he grabbed something he shouldn't have *laughs* and that's how the first line to the poem came to be.

After that it's been like I've opened up Pandora's box.

I've never said it out loud but I hate that the step we needed in order to get towards the relationship all started because of sex.

It kills me inside.

At some point I told him that I didn't want us hooking up to be a thing, he knew I liked him but the question was did he like me back as you already know.

"Do you think you both had sexual tension?"

Oh we most DEFINITELY had sexual tension, my old manager even said that to me *laughs* as weird and probably uncomfortable as that sounds. But she just said it one day to us, she was like "You both just need to sleep with each other.".

But you know how weird my job is, we're all open like that with each other.

Sometimes I just wish I could go back and do it differently...

But the truth is, having sex was sadly the only way.