Way Too Much, Seriously...

*the story*

Ms. Olivia Rodrgio is the new queen of heartbreak as we all know.

It's insane how every song on her album screamed at me, she was singing what I couldn't say for years in any relationship.

I never planned on making a remake, this came to me while I was at work.

I remember being on the phone with my best friend and telling her I wished I was happy for my other best friend and her new upcoming relationship.

The thought of liking someone else while still being in love with another person made me feel horrible, around the time I made this rewrite I had just gotten out of the relationship.

I then meet this other person a week or two later and I end up falling for them because of our instant connection.

This takes place at my best friend's birthday dinner, his name is Matt and he invited two of his new friends from school to the dinner. And of course like I said before we instantly hit it off, with both of the friends actually but definitely with one more than the other.

I instantly retrited my feelings because I found out later that night he ended up liking one of my other best friends, and plus I thought I didn't really like the guy. I believed it was an infatuation or that I was using him to move on.

And by god I was wrong.

The more I talked and hung out with him..I ended up really liking this guy, he was everything I wanted in a person and I couldn't have him.

I kept it a secret for a while until I confessed to Matt's girlfriend (who is my childhood best friend), and we talked about it for days. And the main thing I kept saying over and over was "I wish I was happier for her but I'm not".

So flash forward to the day at my job, after I got off the phone with my best friend I ended up listening to the 'Sour' album. And when happier came on, I just felt everything.

I knew in that moment I felt what Olivia was talking about but in a different way.

And so my rewritten version came to life.

I think it sucks having this battle but in the end I know I want the best for my best friend and the guy.

"Do you think about how much control you have over them since he relies on your advice on how to be with her?"

Never.

It's not in my nature to sabotage someone's happiness.

Not even for my own feelings.