Honkai Impact (Your Guardian)

Chapter 6: The fate of the lonely girl

They say once a cup is full, all you can do is to empty it, lest you bottle it up and it shatters, after that you fill it again-

But is it really that easy, once the source of it is gone, there is nothing left but emptiness.

Tuesday-Night 7:38 PM

May21 2013

"Breaking News, two students at chiba academy have suffered an unfortunate accident today, their names will be kept private for their family's privacy, however, the cause of death will be disclosed, apparently a 3rd year secondary highschool girl fell to her death when a loose fence in the rooftop gave out, and a boy at the same grade got burned while cooking in a room because of a faulty door, further investigation says that the stove used wasn't newly replaced so it probably gave out during that time-"

She stood there, silent but smiling, joy was present on her face as she now accomplished her goals, yet what remained of the aftermath was nothing but emptiness.

"with this, such a pristine and renowned school fell down the drain, you probably never expected such cultivated reputation to plummet overnight right?"

She scoffed, lightly grunting at the face of the principal on the news, their face beading with sweat as they carefully treaded their words, causing a stumble here and there.

"You have no one to blame but yourselves, that's what you get for turning a blind eye to the cries for help, and for your so called "students" whom you failed to properly educate"

Gazing at the hiking rope she had in her dusty drawer, her mind was in disarray as she never thought she'd use it like this, hence with a bit of contemplation; she hanged it unto the ceiling.

"Now that it's done, should I kill myself?"

But when she tried to put it in her neck-

-thousands of questions began to rouse her, she wondered what would happen to her aunt if she went through with it, she also pondered of the pain she'll feel if she doesn't die instantly, most importantly: it wounded her pride that she would stoop so low as to try to escape life, thus, despite her wish...

She just couldn't, she was a coward and she knew that, yet somehow she couldn't take her life no matter how scared she was of living.

She was a murderer now, sure her mental state isn't as bad yet, but she can't say the same in the future, so she had to end her life before she ruins it even more, deep down she understood that but no matter how hard she tried, the voices of her two beloved sisters stopped her.

Scared of what she might become, she was afraid that there might come a time where killing people would be normal for her.

She didn't want that, most of all, she didn't want her sisters to see her in that state, even if they were no longer there to pull on her conscience, shirano didn't want to let go of her remaining humanity.

With tears dropping from her eyes, and her feet now on the ground as she lay on her knees, no matter how much she tried to demonize her victims, nor how much she justified her actions, at the end of the day, nothing had changed; the blood was still on her hands...