The Female Wolf #Wattys2016

Chapter 10: Thoughts

It is often in the darkest skies that we see the brightest stars.

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I open my eyes and see myself back in the church I've been. I look down and notice I'm still in my mother's wedding dress and that the little girl is holding my dress. But now the image to who I'm gonna marry is more clear. It's... Gus. I swallow hard as slowly he smiles and I start to walk. Everyone stands up and the music goes on. I feel like I should stop but my feet don't. I don't feel my heart change it's beat, but I feel something else...Disappointment?

I wait for anything to happen, for Mike to stop it, for someone to go crazy, even for a crazy girl to run in the church and say she loves Gus. But nothing happens. Then, I see rays of sunlight and see Jake coming from the door. This time I stop though. The little girl looks at me confused and then walks away thinking that I should stop. Jake comes in and I notice the look of confusion on Gus's face. I then look at Mike who looks angry. I ignore them and grab my dress. Then I run over to Jake who looks confused at first but smiles. We run out of the church together. He takes my hand and starts to run. I smile and my heart starts to pound as his warmth of his hand touches mine. I feel...relief. We run into the forest and ignore all the people staring at us.

My heel then breaks and I trip a little. Jake turns around and smiles. He picks me up and I wrap my arms around his neck as he carries me to his cabin. Jake puts me down on his couch and I pat down at my dress but it's still poofy.

"Do you think they'll find me?" I ask Jake.

"Nah." Jake shakes his head. I take off my other heel with my foot and sigh. "They're probably gonna kill me." I say and Jake sits down next to me.

"They won't hurt you as long as I'm here." Jake tells me and I grin. Jake leans in and kisses me on the lips softly. I kiss him back gently, not leaning in. I'm happy this way. I don't have to worry about anything when I'm with Jake and I feel safer around him.

My eyes open and I look around. Everything is blury as I look around. I focus on my vision and notice I'm on the ground. I'm wearing normal clothes. I'm not married. I stand straight up and realize I was under the tree.

I slowly got up and made sure no one saw me here. I start to walk again and I feel a little dizzy.
I get up and spot Gus standing there. What is Gus doing here?
"Miranda you're dad has been looking everywhere for you." Gus told me and walked up to me. "You've been hanging out here most of the time?"
"I think so..." I look around and see the tree. Right, I have been. Gus looks confused but simply shrugged. "So listen, your parents told me how you felt..."
I turned around and looked at him sharply. They did what now? Of course they did. I shake my head.
"Gus I-"
"No, I actually think it could work." I froze. What did he just say?
"Huh?"
"Yeah. I mean, I think maybe getting together could benefit us and the pack. I have even discussed it with your father and he thought that it's a great idea." Gus explained. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Gus liked me, my parents told him a lie, and they approved of me dating? No! A parent who wouldn't let me date would really be useful right now.
"Gus honestly I don't think-"
"I never told you this but I always had feelings for you. Now that I know you feel the same way, we can be together and protect each other." Gus grabs my hands, his palm sweaty. I swallow hard. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to tell him I didn't like it, it was all a mistake.
I start to feel more dizzy. "Too soon." I blurted out. Gus stares at me confused.
"What?"
I shut my eyes tight. "Gus I'm too young and so confused. I never thought Mike's ideas of mating with someone to be protected a good idea and I still don't." I want to tell him everything but I didn't know how. I want to add that I want to fall in love on my own and that I don't like him that way.
"But perhaps we can find a way to make it work." Gus muttered. I take my hands away and shove them into my pockets. I try see in it that way. Everyone glad...except me. It's like my dream all over again.
"I need some time." I tell him. "Time to think."
Gus nods. "So, should I take you home?" I shrug and he actually does take me home. I slam the door and my parents glare at me, startled.
"You told Gus I was interested in him?" I demanded. My mom smiles.
"Yeah and he told me he felt the same way! I assume you two are together?" I groan.
"Why did you tell him that!? I don't like him that way!"
"You don't?" My mom asks but I stop. I have to tell them I do like them to hide Jake from, the picture. Jake. I forgot about him.
"You just shouldn't of told him that." I stomp outside again.
"Miranda!" My mother calls but doesn't bother to call me again once I ignore her.