undercover | jungkook

two sides

Jack the Ripper's flashback
(after Junghyun died)

I was sittting in my car, hands on the wheel, looking straight ahead. I drummed my fingers against the steering wheel.

everyone thinks im insane.

I have been told by several doctors that I have issues. I have articles on top of articles written about me, about the Jeon family.

I was on pills from age 5, pills for anxiety, pills for mood swings, pills for this and that. When I was 12, I was diagnosed with some personality disorder that i don't remember the name of. All I know is when I turned 18 and stopped taking the meds, all of them, everything changed. I have this one part of me that just wants to kill the Jeon family in Areum's name, for Jihee. But then I have this other part that knows what I am doing is wrong and keeps telling me to stop.

I never gave Jihee any pills and Areum didn't need any of them.

being completely honest, I loved Areum more. she was kind and understanding when I was having my episodes. Jihee is worst than I am. Jihee encourages the evil side of me to kill.

I loved Areum so much that when Jeon Jeongin killed her, I was so furious. I didn't even know what to do with myself. I killed his wife and daughter out of rage, I wanted him to feel the pain I felt times two.

I don't feel a shred of remorse sometimes. For example a few moments ago. When I took the life of Junghyun and also, right after I kill the mother and sister. But when I have moments of sanity, of clarity, the blood on my hands destroyed me.

Areum was in a car accident involving Jeon Jeongin. It wasn't anyone's fault.

Jeongin killed her on purpose. HE must die. His whole family must die. You have the right to do it for Areum. She would want you to do this.

Areun wouldn't want this.

Yes, she would. Go Jack, go kill Jeon Jungkook, and deliver his head to Jeongin on a satin pillow, finish what you started.

No i will not. Jungkook didn't do anything.

Do it, Jack. Rip out Jungkook's heart and mail it to his father. Make him suffer for killing Areum. Make Jihee happy. Killing Jungkook will make Jihee happy.

I banged my hand against the steering wheel. "I WILL NOT!" I screamed. I rub my temples with my thumb. "I won't." I mumble.

If you dont kill Jungkook, Jihee will never be happy. If you don't kill Jungkook, your only living relative will hate you. You don't want your only daughter to hate you, do you Jack?

"Shut up, shut up, shut up!" I yelled as I banged my head against the steering wheel over and over again. I think of Jihee and how happy she is when Jeon Hyuna and Yerin died. I start to not feel bad anymore, I was helping her move on right? I am helping her move on right?

well, its too late now. Jeon Junghyun is dead. Now Jungkook must die too. I have to finish what I started.

Jihee claims that she can't move on until their whole family is dead so I am going to help her by doing so, by killing the Jeon family. I started driving to Jihee's house. Hopefully Junghyun's death will please her enough to earn me one night of good rest.

tomorrow Jungkook will be my last victim and then after that, hopefully Jihee can find peace. And once my remaining daughter is happy.. I can be too.

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