undercover | jungkook

bby

*a few weeks later*

your pov

"Y/N," Jungkook said, startling me. "Meet me in the car, I'm taking you somewhere."

somewhere? where?

I nodded my head, grabbed some shoes and walked out the door.

I met Jungkook in the car just like he asked. I expected him to say something, yet he said nothing. We drove about two blocks further into the town in pure silence then he stopped the car.

"I just," he paused. "I just wanted to talk to you and we can't talk in the house for... clear reasons."

"Yeah," I responded. "what's on your mind?"

"I just needed to talk to you," he scratched the back of his head nervously.

I shifted my body to face him and nodded.

Jungkook's pov

She turned to me and nodded. At this point, I didn't know what I was going to say and I didn't how I was going to say it either. I just knew that I had to talk to her, but not all fake like we do at the house. I wanted to talk to her like we did the day she found out about my family and I want to hold her like I did a few weeks ago when I had a nightmare.

I was going to tell her I had feelings for her. I was going to be honest because we need to figure this out. We work together, and I can't let my feelings get in the way of the case. But, I can't deny them either.

"Well-" I began. Y/N's phone started ringing. 'Bby' was the contact name.

bby? she has a boyfriend? I almost told her that i have feelings for her and she has a boyfriend. She never told me, but i never asked. ah Jungkook-ah, you're stupid.. of course she has a boyfriend, look at her.

"Hey Andy," she said, answering the phone call. My heart broke a little bit more with every word.

"I'm a little busy right now but I can promise to call you later. yeah. yeah," she nodded as she listened to whoever was on the other line. "okay, love you.. miss you more." she hung up the phone and looked at me. "okay so you were saying."

I got so angry. So jealous. I snapped. I hated the fact that she had a boyfriend. I hated the fact that she said she 'loved me', she didn't mean it. I hated the fact that she wasn't mine.

"Well," I blurted out. "I just want to make sure we're on the same page. So, like, all the stuff we say inside the house is just for the camera, it doesn't mean anything. No feelings or anything because well, I don't want my girlfriend to get mad,"

what was I saying? why was I saying that? I THINK I FUCKING LIKE YOU Y/F/N! why wasn't I saying that?

"Like she knows I'm pretending to be in love with you and all,"

yeah, sure, 'pretending'. Jungkook don't be stupid. Too late. Just tell her. She has boyfriend. What if she'd leave him for me? She wouldn't. You don't know that.

"...but we were talking last night and I just don't want to her feel weird you know?"

"yeah," she flashed me a weak smile. I felt terrible. What girlfriend? Why did i say that? I just wanted to grab her shoulders and yell, 'I THINK I LIKE YOU OKAY?' i just wanted to talk to her for hours on end. I just wanted to know every little quirk about her. I couldn't look her in the eye. "I get it, ready to go home now?" she added.

"yeah," I said.

I turned on the car on and drove back home.

Jeon Jungkook you are a fucking idiot, I hope you know that.

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