What's Done in the Dark, Comes Forth to the Light

Finally

Saturday night, I found myself at Erin's house for a sleepover along with Van and Kris. Erin had invited us over to spend the night, so I plan on refreshing them about the Tylor situation tonight. We headed to Erin's bedroom, threw on Netflix, and dove into a party-sized bag of popcorn and candy. As we watched home improvement shows, I decided to bring up Tylor in our conversation. 

"Okay, guys, guess what?" I thundered. 

"What?" The girls said at the same time. 

"I kid you not. Tylor told me that he thought I was cute in Health class," I said. 

"Shut up, no way," said Savannah and Erin. 

"You're lying,'" Kris said. 

"I'm dead serious, guys," I laughed. 

The girls started to get excited and happy for me. 

"What's next!" yelled Savannah. 

"I'm not entirely sure, but I am hoping that he asks me out for prom sometime. We're supposed to be going to lunch tomorrow after he gets home from church," I said. 

"Why don't you just go to church with him?" Erin asked. 

"Uh, I'm not entirely sure," I said. 

"You should go; when's the last time you went to church?" asked Savannah. 

"It's been a bit," I replied. 

"Yo, Erin, you got some more popcorn, homie?" said Kris. 

Van began to laugh at the randomness, and Erin went downstairs to grab more popcorn. 

"I'll be back; I need to use the restroom," I told Van and Kris. 

I got up and acted like I was going to use the bathroom to avoid the conversation. I get nervous talking about church and God or anything along those lines. I ran the water to make it seem like I was washing my hands, and I headed back to Erin's room, hoping that they would've changed the subject. I sat back down, grabbed some popcorn, and directed my eyes onto the show without saying anything. 

"You're going to let us know how the little date goes, right?" Kris asked. 

"Yeah, one-hundred percent," I said. 

"Great, you go, girl!" yelled Savannah in a cringy manner. We all laughed and wrapped up the night with a good program. 

The Next Day

 I arrived at the restaurant where Tylor said that he wanted to go for lunch. I sat in my car, waiting for him for a while. I felt a chill run throughout my body, but I felt like it was just my sense of nervousness overwhelming me. I had to send Van a text letting her know that I was waiting on him, asking for advice. All she tells me is that I need to stay calm, patient and don't overreact. I hope to leave here today with the confidence that Tylor could be a potential boyfriend of mine soon. However, that confidence is just not there with me right now. After about 15 minutes of waiting, I saw Tylor pull into the parking lot. I paused for a second, then got out of the car and walked over to greet him. We both stepped inside, and he said that he'd cover my meal. I looked at him in awe, thinking to myself that today could be the day. After we got our food, he bowed his head and said a prayer before he ate; but I didn't. "What took you so long?" I asked. 

"I got out of church late," said Tylor. 

"Oh, I forgot you went to church today," I said. 

"Yeah, it was a fun service. Do you want to come next time?" Tylor asked me. 

"No, I'm fine, but thank you," I replied. 

"Are you an atheist?" he asked. 

I sat there and rested for a second because I know he's religious. I like him a lot, and I don't really know what to say. I feel like I'm slowly becoming an atheist in my mind, but for some reason, my heart won't accept that point of view. I should tell him the truth. I knew that I should, so I decided to confess to him and explained how I felt. 

"You know, I don't know how you'll take this, but I am agnostic," I told him. 

"Agnostic?" he asked. 

"Yeah, like, I feel like I don't know for certain most of the time. As a kid, I went through a lot of hardship. I was a victim of bullying as a kid, and I was assaulted by someone within my own family a few years ago, so I don't know if God is real. If God is real, he doesn't seem good to me," I said.

"Oh, wow, I'm sorry to hear that," he said to me. 

"Yeah," I replied. 

"Look, I know how you feel about God, but I think you should consider coming to church with me," said Tylor. 

"I'll think about it, Ty," I said. 

"Okay, great, and I got another question," said Tylor. 

"Okay..." I said after gulping. 

"Remember when you asked me if I was going to get a date for prom?" Tylor asked me. 

"Yes, I do," I answered. 

"Well, I've been thinking the last few nights, and honestly, I realized that I'm getting more and more attracted to you every single day. I looked at him as my eyes began to water because I haven't heard encouraging words like that since elementary school."

"Thanks, Ty, but what happened to not seeing me like that?" I asked. 

"I know, I know, I remember. I was nervous. However, I would like to know if you want to be my date to prom," said Tylor. 

My heartfelt like it got stuffed with cream, and my thoughts were going wild. I looked at him, and I said, "yes!" I will go to prom with you., Ty. He smiled and got up to hug me. I was so happy that I couldn't help but think to myself, 'finally.'