Complicated relationship

Polyamorous?

China POV
So it's the next morning and everybody is still sleep but it's like 6:30 in the morning and I'm bored so I'm about to run to the grocery store and pick up some breakfast so I can cook so I got up threw on some sweatpants and a tank top and grabbed Melodys keys after a few minutes I made it outside to the car and got in and pulled off the only reason I want to cook instead of getting room service is because a lot of stuff had been on my mind like I think I'm in love with Latrell and Mel but I don't don't know how to say it yes we have sex with each other but it's only for our lifestyle and we all know that and made it very clear but I wanna be more than best friends now but anyways I just made it to the grocery store let me go get this food *time jump* I finally made it back to the hotel and some guy help me with my groceries he help me to the elevator and I told him thank you and I went up I got upstairs and put the stuff into the kitchen then looked in the room and they were still out cold so I just went back in the kitchen and started cooking and I hope the smell doesn't wake them up until I'm done but anyways I'm just so scared to tell them like I don't know how anyone will act because Avery is my boyfriend I love him and he is enough for me but when all three of us are together we bring something different out of each other and I wanna feel all those emotions all the time not just when I with that person I just stressed I don't wanna tell them because we are moving in together in less then a month and I don't wanna make it awkward after I tell them it because I don't want bad energy in the house *time jump* so I'm done cooking and I went in the room and everybody is sitting up on there phone "ok y'all can come eat now" when I tell you they ran past me like track stars you would have thought they were starving all the plates are already on the table so everybody just sat down at a plate and started eat I just sat at the chair with the last plate in front of it after I started eating it was in complete silence all you heard was plates and forks clicking together "this shit so good baby" "thank you babe" I said very dry then everybody looked up at me "what are y'all good" "china why do you sound like that" Mel said "I'm just a little tired
Maybe I just woke up to early and started doing stuff it's weighing down on my body" she looked skeptical at first the. Let it go *time jump "ight see y'all later" "ok" Latrell and Mel just left to get some snacks for the hotel room so now it's me and duck just in the living area watching tv but as soon as the door shut from them leaving he turned the tv off and looked at me "what" "I know you wasn't just tired what's actually wrong" "I just said I'm tired not a big deal" "why are you lying to me this is supposed to be a relationship and how am I going to help you with your inner problems if you don't tell me or lie about them" I thought about it for a minute and I don't know how this is going to play out but fuck it "I love Latrell and Mel" he looked at me sideways and said "I do to why are you upset about that" "no babe in love with them" he made a face and I couldn't read his reaction but is wasn't anger or confusion "come on baby and I wouldn't even think this way if it wasn't good for you to your bisexual we can try to convince Latrell to try it I just can't help how I feel I'm sorry" I started to tear up because he wasn't saying anything but he moved closer and grabbed my hands "I know baby I feel the same way for them but I think we need a little bit more time before we tell them and they only got a year and some change under there belt I don't think a group relationship is good for them right now I know we wanna jump on to temptation but we have to also think about there feelings" "ok I guess I'll wait but if Mel ask me about it she is my best friend I can't lie to her" "I understand that too but please don't go acting crazy please everything will fall into place" *time jump* so me and Mel are in the room and then boys are in the kitchen cooking because they said they wanted to cook tonight and who are we to stop them so we are just laying in the bed talking "uhhhh china I forgot to ask you this earlier why were you acting like that is everything ok you seemed drained" "yeah I got something on my chest but it's not anything I need to speak on as of right now" "are you sure you can talk to me about anything your my best friend and you know everything about me the last thing I'm going to do is be a hypocrite or look down on you for anything you said or did" "yeah right now is not the time because the place and mindset I'm in so it might come out wrong so I just need to get my thoughts together" "ok we'll just know that I'm always here for you and there is nothing to be stressed over and if your talking to me nothing you say can really come out wrong because I know how you talk" "thanks for that best I love you" "I love you too but let's go see what these boys are cooking"