Complicated relationship

Sister talk

Melody POV
So I've been in my car for a long time because it's starting to get dark and I'm getting tired so I guess ima go in soon probably after this episode *knock knock* oh shit it's just syn she knocked on the car so I unlocked it and let her in "hey sis what's up" "nun much just coming to check on you" "why wassup is everything ok" "I don't know you tell me" "what you talking about" "Mel the last time you stayed in you car this long you were 16 and dad decided to move in to Monitor us" we both just laugh because yeah I was that fed up the only way I went in the house was to shower and we just thought that it was soon funny but anyways when the laughter died down I had a serious question to ask syn "hey syn can I ask you a question" "yeah anything wassup" "do you think I'm good enough for them" "what the hell do you mean are you good enough" you could see the anger in my sisters face as I question myself "I just feel like I do a lot of stuff wrong and that my boyfriends are starting to hate me like duck he claims that his controlling is overprotective and to be honest I have never did anything for them to be over protective like when people at the school want me I tell them I'm in a relationship or like even when they embarrassed me and China I stuck by there side even though I was so fucking mad I go to ever game,ever meet I fucking sat in the hot sun multiple time just to watch them practice help them with drills provide there snack so they don't pass the hell out on that dumb ass field at this point I don't know what else to do I thought I did everything right this time" I finished off my sentence with a sob because I'm just so honestly confused and then not having anybody to talk to on top of that I know I could talk to China but she is always trying to play peace maker in the relationship so I feel like my problems would go in one ear and out the other "hey come on Mel look at me you are doing everything right and don't let anybody tell you different your beautiful,supportive,out going,dependable your everything a guy and girl dream of and I want you to go in that fucking house and ask them do they wanna be with you because if not you can take Chloe and you know for sure dad will put you in a new condo I know you love them but the way your explaining it this sound more like a fight then a relationship" I wiped my tear and thought about it yeah she is right I should just ask them but I should really ask them on Chloe behalf because it would be fucked up to move her outta one toxic house hold to put her in another "ok I think I'm really to go back I'm the house can you help me bring my stuff in" "yeah come on" so we grabbed all the stuff and started making our way to the house when we got in and threw the trash away and put the blankets on the couch I kinda got froze on the way up the steps "Mel everything is fine just go confront them and even if they say something you don't like just know I always got you" she is right so I took a deep breath and walked into my room where they were watching a movie so I walked over to the remote and turned it off and of course it got all there attention "ight listen I'm only going to ask y'all this once do ALL of you want to be with me" "Mel what are you talking about" china said with a confused face "I mean exactly what the fuck I said we never eye to eye on anything anymore yall take me for granted and always so damn controlling when y'all ask me to be y'all girlfriend y'all want a girlfriend not a dog,puppet,or a yes man so what's going on" "explain one reason you think we don't want you Mel" "let's start with china every Time I bring up a concern about the relationship my fucking feelings go in one ear and out the other and Avery you treat me like a fucking animal you gotta know what I'm doing ever minute of everyday have my location so you can make sure I'm at where I told you I was gonna be the fucking dumbass double standard you have like I'm honesty tired and Latrell one day I fucking sat in your face and cried and told you all the concerns about the relationship and you listen but keep constantly letting him dictate our lives saying baby it will get better when you follow him around like a fucking lost puppy" I had tear coming down once again but I have to finish but when I looked up they were crying to "look I love y'all but I will leave to keep my sanity and Chloe that little girl loves me and I'll be damn if I put her in another toxic house after I told her and her mom she would be safe in my care so what's it going to be" "Melody we love you and don't want you to leave us we just wouldn't be complete please don't leave" china said balling her eyes out "I'll only leave if y'all force me to now I got one answer I need to more and I'm not fucking playing with y'all I will leave and move out before we even get back to Louisiana and y'all know I will" "ok Mel you win what do you want us to change I love you and don't want you to leave" "clearly nun of us are stable enough to do bdsm because of some of us have a power overload so no bdsm till we are all ready again and you can have my location I don't car but no more fucking popping up when y'all go hang out with y'all friends I leave it alone and that's that please treat me the same and last don't double standard me" "ok we promise" they all said in unison uhh I hope this works