Complicated relationship

Your insecurities are showing 

Melody POV
So it's finally the weekend and I made it through a whole week of college it's definitely tuff but it's something I can get use to but as of right now I'm in the kitchen trying to chill because I have a lot of stuff on my mind that I'm scared to bring up because our relationship has been going so good like the girl patients the other day she has all of Latrell's classes and is a school cheerleader so they are around each other all the time it's like I wanna trust my boyfriend but this has happened before he didn't cheat but flirting giving girls the wrong intentions I just don't know "baby love" "yes China" "what are you doing ma" "just thinking" "about what you seem upset let me pick your brain" "we'll you remember the girl patients her and Latrell have all the same classes and she is a cheerleader I'm just scared we are going to have another Kira incident I wanna trust him but I can't in my brain I just think something is going to happen and if he does do something I'm not the only one getting hurt this time" "mamas look at me he is not going to cheat and we are not getting hurt he loves us to much and I think he has grown out of little and bougie" as china was about to finish her sentence we didn't even hear them come down the steps Latrell came in the kitchen asking "who is little and bougie because it's not y'all they hate peoples like that" when he said that I just got quiet I've been kinda giving him the cold shoulder by accident but it's just in my mind "nah so y'all can't talk now huh" we stayed quiet because if I don't know how to tell him china sure has hell don't either "hello china what happen" oh my goodness they know she gives up easy they would ask her but she didn't say anything but duck got in her space and hovered over her "now" she looked back at me with the sorry eyes and said "Melody thinks Latrell is going to cheat on us" he looked at me crazy and said "and now why the hell would I do that" I ignored him again and he said "we not doing this kid shit playing this little baby game right now why do think im going to cheat please let me know why you think after going through all that shit to get you back why would I cheat" "patients" he gave the meanest stank face ever and said "and why would I cheat on you with her" I didn't say anything i just looked at him because I have all rights to feel this way because of what happened in the past "oh so now you deaf and mute" he said as he got closer and started hovering over me  "get out of my face" "ohhh she does speak so why can't you answer my question" "man I ain't got to do shit back up bro" "who the fuck is bro you getting real outta pocket over this little attitude that I don't even know why you have " I didn't even say anything I was just trying to shove past him at this point I don't have time for this "Melody please just tell him why you think he might cheat we have been good until now what made you think that" duck said and you know what I give up they are not going to let it go "oh my gosh because patients is doing the same things kirah did and I don't know I guess I just never fully forgave him" "so you don't trust me because of someone that was obsessed with me" "it's not just her being obsessed with you it was you giving her the time of day when shit got rocky with us I don't give a damn if you wanna make friends go out any of that shit but being friends with someone that wants to have sex with you is where I draw a thick ass line" "she is not my friend and I really don't have a choice in being around her I need my classes to graduate college unless y'all wanna date a broke ass drop out like she likes me and I don't give a fuck you seen it yourself my pushing past her brushing her off I don't care about that little ass girl and if you really don't trust me then why did you take me back and why are we here" "you know what I really don't know why don't I just leave" and I walked over to the key hook got my car keys and left out the house you know I love my boyfriend but sometimes he talks to me like I'm an option and I'm tired of it I want him to talk like he scared of loosing me because ever time we get into it his favorite thing to ask is why are you still here like ok bet but anyways I got in my car and started driving it took me like a good 10 minutes for me to make the conclusion I was stay at a hotel tonight I already had clothes in my trunk and I turned my location off from Latrell and duck so I'm just going to disappear because it sound like that what he wants me to do *time jump* so I decided to drive thirty minutes away from the house to a nice hotel on the other side of town so I pulled my car in the front parked it got out and went in and went to the front desk "hello I made called a few minutes ago I'm Melody" "yes ms.Johnson your room is 28d you have a goodnight ma'am" "alright you to honey you have a good one" huuuu I think this should be good maybe I just need to get away