Complicated relationship

Say goodbye

⚠️mention of Suicide and self harm⚠️
Melody POV
So it's Thursday night and Richard is currently packing while me and my family are in me and Latrell's room watching a movie but I'm about to go downstairs and get some water but I was in between everybody and china was on top of me with her legs on mine but she was facing the tv so I gave her but a pat so she could turn around "yes baby" "I gotta get up right quick watch out" "where are you going" Latrell said "to go get something to drink we didn't bring snacks upstairs" "by yourself" "oh my goodness I just want something to drink and I gotta piss at the same time china was sitting on my bladder" "rd but are going to put some clothes on" I had on Latrell's boxers ducks tank top and chinas socks I'm not going to say I'm fully covered but this is enough clothes to wear to go get some water "Avery I have clothes what are you talking about" the way he looked at me said it all as y'all can tell duck is the more protective one in the relationship when it comes to like clothes and stuff" "Melody but what the fuck I just said go do" china finally moved off my lap and I just walk away and said "ight nobody got time to be putting on whole ass outfits nigga I'm getting water not going to Coachella" I said under my breath then I walked out but I'm sure he heard me but I didn't care I had to pee so I went in the bathroom Handel my business and then went downstairs and my dad had his suitcases on the floor in the living room I didn't wanna say anything to him so I just made straight for the kitchen but he saw me "hey Mel can we talk" he said sitting on the bar stool at the kitchen island "about" "why do you hate me I know I left and I can't tell you how sorry I am for leaving but it seems like you have a deeper hate then just that" I just looked at him crazy "you dead ass right now" "yes like I honestly want to know because if I went through this much trouble to make everything good between us why are you kicking me out pushing me away" "because we don't have nothing to talk about you should have been around when I was 5-16 ain't shit to talk about now I'm happy and comfortable in life now" "what happen then that you wont tell me now" "it's over with now it happened almost twelve years ago ain't shit you can do now" he is starting to piss me off I said it's over with I'm over it and I'm fine I'm happy now "you said you grown show me that you don't need me tell me what happen" oh my gosh fine he wants to know I hope I break his fucking heart "you wanna know what the fuck happen ight bet" I took a deep breath and started "so when you left when I was little I would always ask mom was I the reason you left and she always told me know like a good parent but let's be honest you don't want me or anything to do with me and as I was get older when I went over aunt Lizzie house and she would try and hide all the pictures from your new family so my feeling wouldn't get hurt your the reason for my separation anxiety but you would just say I'm overreacting right" "but" "nah I'm not done you said everything let's fast forward a few year to when I was 12 when I met this guy he was 18 he liked me we started dating after a while and I was also getting bullied let's throw that in there you know when you don't have a dad around your sneaky because my mom was in a relationship but not married and had one job so she didn't have time to tell me no and John was only her boyfriend fuck he look like saying shit to me so I ended up getting raped and tried to kill myself but I'm just a brat and I over exaggerate right ok" "Mel I don't know" "oh you thought that was the end nah we ain't done so when I was 15 and found the courage to leave I moved in with syn but you had a big ass problem with that and I basically disappeared off the face off the earth because I wanted to die everyday I woke up because he told me I was nothing with out him and I really felt that way because I had nobody mom
Was always busy dad left and my siblings have there own lives but you know who helped me china the girl that you claim is worthless and ghetto yeah her you always talk about how I never have clothes on well a few years ago I wouldn't leave the house without layers because I was fucking paranoid and uncomfortable within my fucking body but you don't give a fuck right I'm a whore got you but finally when I hit 16 I was way more confident and I got a boyfriend a good guy but I almost lost the love of my life over shit that could have been avoid had you fucking stayed and did you job that's why I fucking hate you I have no fucking respect for you at all you left me out to dry and created another family like you don't already have five fucking kids your the reason my fucking boyfriends and girlfriend can leave the house for to long or I start freaking the fuck out the reason I can't live like a normal fucking person I normally never hate peoples but I wish you the worst in life bro I hope satan has a hot ass place in hell for you" "listen I deserve all of everything you saying and I'm sorry it took me this long to come back but I wanna fix this and I know I have been going about it the wrong way but as you can tell I really don't know how to talk to people I was raise by your aunt basically and you see how she act give me another chance" "no you just wanna stay in my house and spy on me fuck no" "no when my wife comes tomorrow I will never step foot back in Louisiana unless you ask me to I wanna make it right and if that has to be through the phone so be it please" I was debating and think and I was just like ight fuck if he said he is moving out he no have another chance but far away from me and he said over the phone this block button go crazy he can talk out his ass if he wants to "ok we can try again but your leaving Tomorrow and when we get on the phone don't you dare try and pity me" "I won't I swear can I have a hug" I looked at him funny but gave him a hug and then started to make my way towards the steps but as soon as I hit the corner I see my babes and china is balling her eyes out damn they heard all of that I explain later they look like they need a hug