ੈ eyes ‧₊˚ [ shim jake - enhypen ]

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hee : can we meet today at 3 ?

why ? : me

hee : i want to tell you something

okay : me

i toss my phone on my bed and throw myself on the bed . i wonder what does he want to talk about . maybe about jake ? please don't talk about that day

i ruffle my hair when so many question running inside my brain . then i got an idea . i bit my lips when i was about to press the number . should i try again ?

i press the number and wait for it . pick up jake

'the number you dial-' i hung up the call tired of hearing the same voice and words . i roll my eyes and went out of my bed , getting ready to meet heeseung .

hee : meet me at xxx restaurant . wear something nice :)

my phone got a notification and i look at it weirdly . fine

i sigh

" hey tiha here !" heeseung said making me look at him as he wave at me from afar . i wave my hand awkwardly . " why are we at this nice restaurant . what are we going to talk about ? " i ask quickly after i sit on my seat . " calm down let's eat first " i shut my eyes after he said that . we look at the menu with an awkward silence . the clinking glass and people chit chatting makes me want to run away . it's so awkward

i was about to say something to him but he called the waiter to take our order make my lips form into thin line. " one medium well steak , please " then he look at me and mouth 'what do you want to eat' . " same please thank you " i smile awkwardly at the waiter . as the waiter write the order and walk away from us

" so ? " i said

"so what ? "

" this " i pointed at the restaurant

" i just want to have a dinner with you " he said as i lean my back at the chair , tired of sitting straight because of the awkwardness. " so you lied to me so you could have dinner with me ?"

" yes "

" why did you lie ? " i frown and tilt my head to the side

" i just don't want us to be awkward because of what i said that day so im buying you a dinner " he smile . i nod as i force a smile and drink my juice .

when the steak arrived ,heeseung enjoy eating it and i don't really eat cause i have no appetite to eat and i don't like steak .

" why ? you don't like steak? " he ask

" no i love steak but today i don't have appetite to eat steak " i force a smile as he nod his head

" do you want to eat something different ? you cam order " as he lift his hand to call the waiter

" no its okay i can eat it "

after we were done eating , heeseung ask me " do you want to eat dessert ? " i shook my head

" im having a stomachache . so i want to go home now "

after we eat , he walk with me to my house . when we were walking , heeseung spoke up . " i like you , tiha "

i look at him with wide eyes . " i want you to feel the same way too "

" i can't heeseung "

" why ? because of my brother ? "

" i can't im sorry " then he hold my hand

" please . just give me a chance i can treat you right "

" heeseung , you're actually a nice and warm-hearted guy. but i just don't feel the same way as you feel . it's just my situation is very hard right now and i don't want to hurt you or jake" i said and walk away

" why do you still like him even if he left you ? doesn't that hurt you ? he left you tiha and will never come back " i look at him and slap him .

" don't you dare say that . he is my first love and im his first love . he gave me his eyes . he gave me his freaking eyes . i can't sleep when i know i took something precious from someone . and that someone is jake . even someone who have an accident and brain dead on hospital bed can't give me their eyes .but jake ? he made a choice and willingly gave me his eyes . nothing can break us apart even if we are far away from each other " i said while my eyes becomes teary . i walk away and fasten my pace

making me bump into someone .

why do i always bump into someone ? why does someone always want to bump into me ?

the world stop when i saw his face . everything stop at that very moment when i met his eyes . everything become slow as my heart started beating really fast .