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How do I Explain?

Poetry

Tw: trauma These are just little lines of some things that go through my head, I dont know how to explain everything I feel (hint the name) I post these for others to see they're not alone in being confused and trapped in the past

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where im from [poem]

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by swaggerzdez

by swaggerzdez

I am from two worlds
Structure and chaos
Disney decorations and caution tape

I am from steering clear of my trauma
Music drowns my thoughts
Sleepless nights to avoid the terrors

I am from matching pajamas
Sharing shoes and headbands
And all that lies in between

I am from the color pencils
Use to decorate blank pages
With artwork fueled by pain

I am from martial arts and boxing tournaments
To ballet shows and musicals

I am from the peircing dagger
Of unbearable news
Emotions uncontrollably bleeding out

I am from hearing my heart
Nothing else
Not the sound of my breathe
Just my heart racing

I am from happy and loving surroundings
But a past that haunts me