Always (Levi X transmasc reader)

Chapter 1

D/M= Deadname

Y/N= Your name

I walk through the cafeteria and look bored for a place to seet. I really have to be faster next time, I don't have the patience for this shit. There I spot some free seets on the little table in the corner. But someone else sits there too. Wait, I know that guy. We had history class together this morning. The teacher said he's new. His name's Levi, I guess. He sat right infront of me and I spend the whole lesson with analysing his haircut. That was in fact way more interesting than our current subject we're going through. Usually I love history, but right now it's just boring. No one sits with him, so I decide to just join him. Okay, get your shit together and don't piss yourself! I'm probably not gonna talk to him. I'm way to anxious for that. I take a deep breath, bevore I walk towards the table and stop right infront of it. ,,Ehm...Is here still free?", I ask and Levi looks up to me. ,,Only, if you don't try to hit on me like the others.", he answers and I nood. ,,Do I look like I'm gonna hit on anyone?", I reply and the raven shakes his head. ,,You honestly look like a lesbian." Ouch. I sit down and sight. ,,Would that be something bad?" ,,Not at all. You just look like you're straight." Exactly. I'm not straight. To be honest, I'm not even a girl. I'm a transboy. I know that since I'm 13, but I barely told anyone. I told it a few people out of my family, including my mom and because there weren't so many signs in my childhood, they told me it's just a phase and ignored it straight away and my mom gets mad every time I bring it up, so I just leave it. ,,I'm actually not, but I'm also not a lesbian.", I say and take a bite from my sandwich. ,,Then what are you?" ,,None of your buissnes." I hope he got that this is meant in a sarcastic way. ,,I know all the girls in this school are little bitches. Just try to ignore them.", I say and start to play with a strain of my long, blond hair. I hate my hair so much. I'd rather just cut it off and diy it black, but I'm not allowed to and I'm scared I might mess it up, when I do it by myself, so I just leave it like that. ,,I'll try. What's your name?", Levi asks and I nervously bite my bottomlip. Great, I'm overhelmed already. He'd probably be confused, when I come him with a boy name, so I'm just gonna tell him my deadname, I guess. ,,I'm D/N. We have history class together.", I answer and he noods. ,,I remember. You were staring at me like a little creep." Shit. He noticed. ,,I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to!", I say nervous and bite my teeth together. ,,Calm down, it's fine.", Levi replies and leans back. I take a deep breath and do the same. ,,Ehm...do you like it here?", I ask after a while and the raven shruggs his shoulders. ,,Not really. The others seem annoying.", he answers and I nood slowly. ,,Am I annoying you too?" ,,Not at all." Okay, that's new. Usually everyone I'm taking too instantly shows signs I'm annoying them. That's why I'm barely talking to anyone. But that's not with Levi. He seems passive, but not really annoyed. ,,Ehm...If you need help with anything here, I'm willing to help you, if you want.", I say and smile slightly. ,,Then, do you know any places, where you can fun?" Oh, okay. ,,I could show you some places after school, if you want." ,,That would be great. Then after school at the exit?" ,,Okay." There I already hear the bell ringing. ,,I have to go now. See you later then.", I say and smile slightly. ,,Okay, bye." I nood at Levi, bevore I make my way to the classroom. The rest of the day I'm not really paying attantion to what the teachers say. I'm too exited for after school. I've never done this bevore, 'cause I'm socially completely incompetent and am not really able to make friends. Well, maybe I'll get one soon, I don't know. After school finally ends, I throw my bag over my shoulder and run down the hallways, until I'm standing at the exit, where Levi and I are supposed to meet. I wait like five minutes, when I finally see him coming towards me. I feel a weard happines coming up inside me and sight. ,,Hey.", I say and he noods. ,,Hey.", he replies and I smile slightly. ,,So...Shall we go then?" ,,Okay." I actually don't know much places to go, but there are few ones I'm always going to, so I'm gonna take him there, I guess. In fact, there are three places. A café near my house, the big city park and the libary. I think I'm gonna take him to the café first. It's really nice there and I always go there to distract myself from all the shit that's happening right now. ,,Where are we going?", Levi asks after a while of just walking next to eachother. ,,To my favorite café.", I answer and he noods. ,,You know, I actually thought you were gonna say no, when I asked you to show me around." ,,Why?" ,,Don't you have friends you wanna hang out with?" I have to laugh and the raven looks at me confused. ,,Do you really think I have friends?" Okay, Y/N! Calm down or he just leaves and you're standing alone again! ,,You could've just said no and I would've got it.", he just says and I sight. ,,Sorry.", I reply and stand up straight again. ,,Stop apologising the whole time and just answer properly." I nood and stroke my hair behind my ear. There I notice we're standing right infront of the café now. ,,Here it is. Ehm...wanna go in?", I say and smile nervous. ,,Do they have good tea?", Levi asks and I nood. ,,They have amazing tea.", I answer and he noods. ,,Then yes." 

So, this was the first chapter. I hope you like it and I really wanna thank you for reading my story!

Jace