Always (Levi X transmasc reader)

Chapter 4

Outside stands a silver car in which I see Levi and Hanji sitting in. One of the doors open and Levi looks at me. He gets out and looks at me. ,,Hey.", he says and I nood nervous. ,,Hey.", I reply quitely and the raven points at the car. ,,Come on, get in." ,,O-Okay." I open the backdoor of the car and get inside. ,,Hey, D/N! Nice outfit!", Hanji, who sits on the driverseet says and I smile nervous. ,,Hi, Hanji. Ehm, thank you, I guess.", I reply and grab my sweather a little. Levi enters the car again and closes the door behind him. ,,Come on foureyes, let's go.", he says and Hanji noods. ,,Sure, you don't wanna make her your girlfriend? She seems to have a nice taste in clothing." ,,Hanji!" ,,Okay, okay, calm down!" Slowly the brunette starts to drive, while I just sit there and don't know what to do. Why the hell wants Hanji me to be Levi's 'girlfriend'? We barely no eachother and I'm actually not sure, if we'd even fit. Let's just pretend, we'd actually fell inlove: Would he still date me, if he knew, I'm trans? What if he's not into people like me? Why am I even thinking about this? It's not like we'd actually ever come together. I'd be happy, if we even get to stay friends. The whole drive none of us says anything, until we arrive at a club I've never seen before. We drove like an half hour and I'm pretty sure we're in another citynow. ,,Ehm...how old are you?", Hanji asks and turns around to me. ,,I'm seventeen.", I answer and they nood. ,,Great, so we don't have to worry!" With these words Hanji leaves the car and Levi does the same. Okay, good I took my ID with me. I shrugg my shoulders, before I exit the car too and sight. 'Cause it's summer it's still not dark outside and I'm littelary burning alive, but I don't really care. I wouldn't wear a T-shirt anyway, 'cause I really don't want anyone to see my scars, that cover my entire arms. ,,Are you coming?", Levi asks suddenly and I nood, before I follow the two to the club. I've actually never been at a club before. This is my first time. We stand in the line, while Hanji and Levi are arguing about Levi's relationship status and it's actually kinda funny to listen to them. ,,Come on, Levi! It's time for you to get a girl!" ,,Fucking hell, no!" ,,Or do you want a boy?" ,,I don't care now leave me alone with this! I don't need a relationship, end of conversation!" I chuckle a little. ,,D/N, what about you? Do you have a boyfriend?", Hanji asks suddenly and I blush a little. ,,No, she's a lesbian.", Levi throws in and I role my eyes. ,,I'm not! And you're gay!", I reply and now Hanji looks like they're gonna burst out in laughing soon. ,,Now everything makes sense.", they laugh and the raven roles his eyes. ,,Oh, shut up!" I laugh a little, before I catch myself again. ,,And to answer you're question: No, I don't have a boyfriend. I also don't have a girlfriend." I look at Levi. ,,I actually never had a parnter before, but I'm looking forward to get one. Just haven't found the right one yet." Hanji smiles, when I notice the line is getting shorter. ,,It's our turn, let's go!", they say and we walk a little further. 

Ten minutes later

I stand in the club and look around. Everywhere are people and I start to get nervous. To many people for me. ,,Are you okay?", Levi next to me asks suddenly and I look at him. ,,Yeah, I'm fine.", I answer and force a smile on my pale face. I look at the dance floor, where Hanji's just dances for their life. I could never. I just constantly have the thought in my head, that everyone's staring at me and judging me. ,,Don't like too dance eather?", the raven asks and I sight. ,,Not really." LIAR! ,,Wanna go drink something then?" ,,Would be great." Actually I love dancing, I'm just to anxious to do it in public. I follow Levi to the bar and we sit down on two chairs. ,,Sorry for this weard conversation earliyer. I told you, Hanji's kinda weard." I laugh a little. ,,No, it's fine. I like having this kind of conversations, so don't worry about that.", I say and the raven shruggs his shoulders. ,,Still. I don't know why they're so interested in me getting a relationship. They just keep shipping me with random people. That kinda sucks, you know.", he replies and I look at my feet. ,,Feel you." ,,Huh?" ,,My brother used to do it too and I was hella annoyed about that." ,,You've got a brother?" Shit. ,,Kind of...I guess. He left when I was twelfe and I didn't hear anything from him since them." Why am I telling him this? I never told anyone about Kay. Why now? ,,Do you miss him?" I shrugg my shoulders. ,,Yeah. You know, before he left, he promised me he would take me with him but then I woke up one morning and everything that was left from him was a note. Of course I was angry and I still kind of am, but I can't change it now anyway." ,,Do you know why he did it?" Why is he asking so much? And why am I not even a little upset about it? Probably because I finally can talk about Kay without getting judged, but I'm not sure. ,,My family's very conservative and as faar as I know he's gay and ran away together with his to this time boyfriend. Our parents, especially our father always made him down for his sexuality and when they got divorced we both thought it would become better, but then our mother also started and I think he just couldn't take it anymore." Silence for  second. ,,I'm glad my mother's not like that." I nood and sight. ,,Is she cool with this kind of topic?" ,,Yeah. She once told me, that whoever I bring home as my partner, she's fine with it, as long as I'm happy. I didn't even come out to here. Like, is it really that obvious?" I laugh a little. ,,You don't seem stereotype like, but you kinda give me energy." ,,Says you." ,,Haha, funny. Ehm...did you ever bring someone home yet?" ,,No. I just don't know anyone I could possibly be together with. I'm just not good with romantic stuff. I wouldn't even notice a flirt when it's directly infront of my nose." ,,Huh, same." Levi wants to say something, when suddenly Hanji apears directly behind him. ,,Hey guys! Are you having fun?", the ask and the raven roles his eyes, but doesn't answer.