Always (Levi X transmasc reader)

Chapter 5

I stand infront of the club and feel the cool wind stroking over my skin. I just needed some air, Levi and Hanji are still inside. It's already 1 am, but I'm not tired at all. ,,Hey.", someone behind me suddenly says and I turn around. ,,Hey Hanji.", I reply and Hanji smiles slightly. ,,Here you are. We've been already looking for you." I shrugg my shoulders and I sight. ,,I just needed to some air, that's everything. Where's Levi, by the way?" They laugh a little and I furrow my brows. ,,He drunk a little to much and he's throwing up in the tiolett right now." ,,Oh, ehm...okay." I giggle a little. This imagenation is actually quite funny. Oh my god, I'm such a terrible person. Hanji leans on the railing next to me and looks at me. ,,Tell me something.", they say and I look at them confused. ,,What do you want me to tell you?", I ask and the brunette grins weardly. ,,You're not a girl, aren't 'ya?" Huh? How did they know? ,,Is it really that obvious?" ,,So?" Uff. ,,I'm actually trans, so I'm a boy." Hanji's smile gets brighter and I bite my teeth together. ,,That's so cool! Why didn't you say anything?" If I only knew. ,,Most people are just ignoring it or become weard when I tell them, so I always find out, they're okay with this kind of stuff." ,,Did you tell Levi yet?" I shake my head. ,,No. I'm a little...scared." ,,You don't have to be. He's completely fine with these kind of things, don't worry about that. Ehm...what's you name?" I have to smile a little. ,,Y/N.", I say quitely and look at my fingers. ,,Suits you.", Hanji replies and I look at them again. ,,Thanks.", I whisper and start to play with a strain of my hair. ,,Can I call you that then?" I nood slowly. ,,If you want..." ,,I defintly will. And your pronouns?" I bite my teeth together. ,,He/they." ,,Thanks for telling me. Really." I nood slowly. ,,But please don't tell Levi yet. I wanna tell him myself when I'm ready.", I say and look at my fingers again. ,,I won't. But you should soon. He may not seem like it, but he's actually very soft and sensible. And he can do very good haircuts, by the way. So, if you ever need help with this..." I laugh a little. ,,Thanks, I will.", I smile and turn around, so I can lean back. ,,Since when do you know it?" ,,Hm? Oh, ehm...Since I'm thirteen." ,,Wow, so long? That must be awfull for you." I shrugg my shoulders. ,,It is, but I already got used to it. I mean getting misgenderd and deadnamed 24/7 hella hurts, but what should I do about it? I can't do anything about it until I turn eighteen, but I still have to wait one entire year until I can finally start to transition." ,,Why? Don't you parents allow you too?" ,,No, my dear mom still thinks it's just a phase 'cause there weren't any visible signs in my early childhood." ,,Well that was a long phase then." ,,That's exactly what I'm thinking." We both laugh for quite a while, until we finally calm down and both just look at the mostly completely drunk people trembling around. ,,By the way what do you think about Levi?", Hanji asks after a while and I look at them. ,,In which way?", I ask back, but kinda already know it already. ,,Do you think he's hot? Attracktive? Sexy?" Aaaaand I was right. ,,Like he already said, there's nothing. We know eachother for only a few days, so how could it be?" ,,I asked you, if you find him attracktive, not, if you're inlove with him." Ugh. ,,Maybe a little. He may fit quite into my type spectrum (Is that even a word???) but does that matter?" I notice Hanji now has a big grin in their face and I can feel my head getting a little hot. ,,I think, Levi finds you attracktive too.", they say and I role my eyes. ,,Why would he think such a think? I look like a litteral potato.", I reply and the brunette smiles slightly. ,,I've seen the way he's looking at you. He never looks at people like that. And I also wonderd why he trusted you this quick. Mostly he just keeps pushing everyone away, but not with you." (No, I'm not gonna put this typical Y/N quote here!!) ,,Oh, I don't know. I'd be happy, if we could just stay friends. That would be enough for me." ,,If you think so..." ,,Here you are!", I hear Levi suddenly behind me and sight.