Once we get to mine me and Jj get out the car.
K: come on
Jj: where are we going?
K: round the back
Jj: why?
K: cause of my parents.
Jj: but-
K: can you stop asking questions! Just stop talking.
We climbed up to my bedroom and I switch the light on, then I turn back to face Jj.
He stares at me.
Why is he looking at me like this? Wait he's not looking at my eyes though. Oh, shit.
Jj: did you?...but erm.
K: Jj you-
Jj: w-why? When did you erm?
He refers to the fresh cuts down my left wrist.
He slowly creeps closer and lifts my arm to take a closer look.
Jj: was this because of me?
I shook my head no.
Jj: then why?
K: it doesn't matter
Jj: yes it does!
K: no it doesn't Jj!
Jj: ...why didn't you tell me?
K: how could I? After John B, I didn't see you for weeks, I was broken and then you came over and I was broken once more then another by my stupid parents. And you expect me to tell you that was cutting myself again!?
Jj: keeks-
K: yeah oh by the way JJ I wish I was the one who died that night!
Jj: what?
K: exactly it's not an easy thing to say
Jj: ...I'm sorry
K: it's not your fault. It's just not what I wanted.
Jj: what do you mean?
K: I didn't wanna see you, I wish I hated you.
Jj: why?
K: because you have no idea, how hard it is to be your friend when I still have feelings for you.
I begin to tear up.
Jj: believe me if I knew the last time I kissed you it would be my last, I wouldn't have stopped.
K: but you did, and you stopped the one bit happiness I had going in my life.
Jj: keeks-
K: your things are in the third draw. You may as well take it all now.
Jj: I don't want to...cause then that means I have no reason to come back.
K: I thought I gave you enough reasons to stay. But that didn't- that didn't matter.
I handed him his things and grabbed myself a hoodie. As I begin to leave I turn back to him.
K: look we can be friends and I'll act fine hanging around with the pogues but... us, it's different to how we used to be before.
Jj: why did it have to change?
K: well we can't go back to how we were before, we can't go back to while we were together-
Jj: why-
K: cause you made that decision! I can't keep breaking my heart for you JJ. As much as I lo-
I stopped myself and he took a step closer to me.
J: what?
K: it's doesn't matter Jj. We've got to erm, we gotta go.
I climb out of my window and go straight to the car, Jj slowly follows behind.
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Authors note
We love a bit of JJ and Keira tension. Also I'm back trying to post a bit more🫶🏼🫶🏼
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Broken promises ~ JJ Maybank ~ Sequel to Promises
Romance* "it's just three words, eight letters. What are you so afraid of?" * "That when I say those words...he'll leave me. I'm not ready to broken again. And I'm definitely not ready to lose him"
