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Chapter 6: Fallen

Jung Haneul's POV

I whimpered and slowly fluttered my eyes open. As my eyes opened, he's face welcomed me. He is still asleep so I took the opportunity and appreciated his face.

He still had me in his arms and with that, I initiated to pull away, carefully setting myself free from his embrace so not to wake him up. His arm must be hurting since I've been using it as a pillow the whole night. The thought somehow made me feel bad. I hope his arm won't feel sore.

I may have left his embrace, but I stayed in his bed and sat down, leaning my back against the headboard. He looks so peaceful in his sleep and out of instinct, I started caressing his head with a smile on my face.

What was even last night? I don't know how to put things together. He cuddled with me and for me, it means something special to me, but what about him? Does he even remember asking me to stay, calling me baby, and embracing me in his arms?

I sighed and smiled sadly, taking back my hand because I felt that I am in no position to do more skinships with him. It's already a new day and for sure, the effect of alcohol in him has already subsided. What happened last night is just something that he did out of being under the influence of the alcohol that we drank last night.

For him, it's nothing. But for me, it meant a lot. It meant so much to me for being able to be hugged by him like that.

My feelings had gotten deeper than I thought it could get. It's no longer just a mere admiration for him and I hate myself for that. What if he doesn't even feel the same way nor will he ever feel the same way? Nonetheless, I hope this feeling will subside. I don't want our friendship to come to waste just because I grew feelings for him. He's a very amazing person and I think losing him will be a big loss for me if that happens.

Namjoon groaned and mimicked my position. His eyes are still closed. "Did I touch you?" He asked as soon as he saw me and he looked so worried. He was looking intently at my eyes and I assume that he didn't notice that we're both fully clothed. The question made me chuckle as I shook my head.

He sighed in relief. "Great," he said and looked at our bodies to check and he sighed another sigh of relief after seeing me and him in clothes.

"Don't you remember anything?" I asked, in hopes that he would remember asking me to stay at least.

"My last memory is telling you to sleep," he answered, which surprised me though I did not show him any expression of that. "But I assumed that I may have probably done something else that no longer occupied my consciousness so I asked. Good thing my assumption is wrong," he smiled at me softly.

Should I ask him why he treated me like that last night?

Before I could even say anything, he got out of bed and went inside the bathroom to probably freshen himself up. He must be feeling a pain in his head after getting drunk last night. I decided to stay and wait for him so that we could go down together. I'm not sure if my friends are already up so I'll just stay here.

When he got out of the bathroom, he had already changed his clothes into new ones. He handed me a black shirt which I looked at in confusion. "You might want to freshen up and change. You kinda reek of alcohol and a hint of vomit. Did someone vomit?"

I bit my lower lip, feeling ashamed about what he said. Though there's really nothing to be ashamed about being that we all did reek of alcohol, the vomit part is what I am embarrassed about. Ari must have had some on her shirt or just somewhere on her body and I didn't notice so maybe some may have transferred on my clothes.

"Ari vomited last night," I answered.

He nodded. "I'm not surprised. She sure did drink a lot."