As the birds sing the blues, I closed my book quietly and creep to the top of my bed in fatigue.
The door of every room was shut tight, leaving me at peace for once.
No storybook
No goodnight kiss
None of that existed as I thought
Or as heard and seen from the movies and those at my schoolAs a child, I always gotten used to being the one who felt like a stepping stone
Yet I am still here under the moonlightI was a little star that flew too far
A lonely little starSometimes the little star wishes upon the sky
However it never came true anywaysacross from me, the moonlight shone from the locked window
My only friend who have comforted me
The one who sang the lullaby' of serene
One who knew what happened.
It have been awhile since I've heard the nostalgic melody
Around me
The sound was silent yet kind
But
I couldn't sleep under it's beautiful embrace
Many nights, I remember the feeling of being watched
Being threatenedHowever
Shadows were gone for now
But I knew they were never deadWaiting impatiently
I thought of those days where I felt my heart stop
recalling the days I have physically grown out of
Wondering If I ever healed
Wondering if those feelings of memories would settle down
Wondering why the continuous clouds of thunder strike me
everywhere I go
everywhere I will be
everywhere.
defenseless
small
afraid
I wish it all to go away
.
.
.
As the clock struck midnight
every tick were a heartbeat
slow
soft
Thump thump
Eyes grew heavy and closed
but never had the chance to be asleep
was I anxious?
was I scared?
what was there?
There was nothing
what was there to face?
nothing
That's what I thought
A nerve struck a core inside me
What was keeping me up?
Slithering through me, was a glimpse of her
My eyes opened wide as I held my head in pain
Suddenly
whispers came in all direction
too much
to where it overwhelmed me to death
Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick
It was 12:12
I snuggled and kept my knees close to myself
waiting for my mind to calm itself
I began to recall the days I felt happy
Those were the days I took for granted
I wonder if I ever did or was it just bad luck
Bad luck that I had to have everything taken away from me
No sense of power nor stability
If only I could have
maybe the urks of worms all over me would stop
every time
every time I moved,
every time I rest for a moment
If only,
perhaps those nightmares of the shadows would stop
Every night, I kept waiting patiently
patiently...
"for what?", a hollow yet soft voice whispered
I gasped for a slight moment and lifted my head
Searching for her
No signs
Only emptiness that filled the air
The sky and the stars were all noir
I knew it.
As much as I would want to see her
The stars and moon would never touch
Despite being in the same sky
"You", I said faintly
No signs
How tragic
YOU ARE READING
To: Her
SonstigesWhen the time comes and the skin of your spirit grows frail You will find a little soul guiding you to the time that started it all