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forgiving // en- park jeongseong

"y/n please open the door," he begged.

he's been doing that for almost thirty minutes.

"y/n, baby, i'm sorry," his voice cracked.

sorry's not going to cut it.

the knocking of the door and jiggling of the doorknob ceased after a few more minutes. you pressed your lips together in a thin line, loosening your grip on the pillows that you pressed tightly against your ears to block him out. moving quietly, you got up and pressed your ears against the door, trying to listen for any movement. nothing, no shuffling of footsteps moving away, and no more knocking for the next minute or so. until seconds later you heard a choked sob and your heart shattered all over again.

it is one thing to be upset with him but a whole other thing to hear him cry.

squeezing both your eyes shut, you willed yourself to push away from the door and dragged your feet back to the bed. as much as you wanted to forget about the argument you just had, your brain couldn't help but recall it. his words stung, especially when he sounded like he meant every bit.

"sometimes i wish i'd never been with you, y/n!"

ouch.

then the door slammed in his face.

you didn't know when you fell asleep, but when your eyes fluttered open it was already bright, and in your disoriented state your hands fumbled around the bed for your phone. it was 10am, and jay would have left for work by now. you rubbed your eyes groggily and sat up. he must've left without having his lunch packed. sighing, you went into the kitchen and prepared a quick meal, packing it into his lunchbox and then going straight into the shower.

now feeling refreshed and slightly better, you grabbed your purse, phone, and keys with your boyfriend's lunch in your other hand and made your way to the nearest subway station. you were wearing a simple oversized hoodie and some leggings, planning to go straight home after delivering jay his food. it was a beautiful day out, so you took your time to get to the building where he was probably practicing, purposely taking the longer route. about an hour and a half later when you finally reached the building, you flashed your id and immediately got in.

"hey, y/n! fancy seeing you here," a cheery voice greeted you from behind as you were walking through the hallway to get to one of the practice rooms.

with your fight or flight triggered, you turned around so fast you thought your neck was probably going to snap. when you saw the owner of the voice who almost scared you to death, you relaxed and let a smile adorn your face.

"hi, heeseung!" you waved, genuinely happy to see him. he caught up to you and you guys began to walk together.

"is that for me?" he raised an eyebrow while looking at the lunchbox you were carrying in a bag and you chuckled as you knew he was just teasing. "i'm just kidding, jay's inside. do you want me to call him for you?" he asked.

before he could leave you to go and call his member, you quickly grabbed his shirt and tugged him back, shaking your head. heeseung's expression fell and his eyebrows furrow, concern taking over his handsome features as the both of you stopped walking altogether.

"i'd... rather you not," you hesitated. "we had a bit of a- uh, disagreement last night. here, just pass this to him for me," you explained and shoved the lunchbox into heeseung's hands as the plastic made a loud rustling sound. his eyes looked down to his hands then back at you before nodding firmly.

"and if he doesn't want it, then you can have it. but share," you pointed an accusing finger at him, joking to lighten the dull mood a little.

heeseung chuckled and ruffled your hair, earning a groan of disapproval from you as you swatted his hands away. you watched as he jogged away, wincing internally as his action swung the plastic with the lunchbox in it around. he waved at you and you smiled, waving back before turning around to leave and head straight home.

when heeseung entered the practice room, jay caught sight of you turning the corner before the older boy closed the door behind him completely. when he turned around again to face him, jay felt his heart stop beating momentarily when he saw what his hyung was holding. he didn't say anything, but a thousand things were running across his mind that instant.

was y/n done with me? is y/n and hyung a thing now? could that be for me? are we okay again? but i haven't apologised properly. maybe it is for heeseung-hyung.

"hello? earth to jay?" heeseung waved an empty hand in front of him.

jay's eyes fluttered as he snapped out of his trance. he hadn't notice that his hyung had come up to him, being so lost in his own thoughts. his gaze met heeseung's mischievous eyes, down to his hands, then back to his hyung's face. jay took a deep breath and held it, bracing himself for the worst news of his life.

"your y/n brought this for you," heeseung told him, holding the lunchbox out for jay to take.

jay felt like the whole world had been lifted off his chest. y/n brought this for me. my y/n, he thought, repeating in his head what his member had just said. he grabbed the lunchbox and thanked heeseung, and the older boy just shrugged. jay's heart swelled so much with joy that he thought his lungs would burst. you weren't going to break up with him. his eyes then saw a small yellow post-it note on the lid of the plastic box.

have a good day and eat well. the heart doesn't just stop loving overnight, you know. that's not how it works, jerk.
- y/n.

jay's shoulders relaxed and he smiled. you showed him that you were still upset with him, but also that you still cared enough so that he wouldn't go hungry throughout the day. he felt like the luckiest guy in the world.

"i love you, too," he whispered and set the food aside to eat for lunch later.

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a/n: hi guys!! just wanted to say that i'll make a part two for this if i'm not too busy so no worries! i just didn't want to make y/n forgive SUPER easily HAHAH

i hope you enjoyed this one nonetheless <33

- nur.