The Girl & the Car

Chapter 14

I stepped out the door of Lucas' home and walked to the bus. I realized I was only wearing sweats and a jacket and had no keys, no phone, and no wallet. All of that was at Andy's. I got on the bus and rode it back to where I had come from. Where I gave an ultimatum that didn't end very well. I lowered my head and let the bus lull me deeper into my thoughts. 

When the bus pulled to her stop, I sighed. I had to face her. I had to own up to what I did. To what I said. I trudged up the stairwell and counted each step closer and closer to her apartment. I then came up to her door and rested my head against it. I'm a fool. I should've kept it bottled up because that's what a man does, right? 

Wrong.

A man owns up to his shit and confesses his emotions. I refuse to buy into the ideology that men must be the strong ones and never seek help or express emotion. 

I then knocked on the door. Very slowly three raps. Suddenly the door opened to reveal... Emma?

"Emma? What are you doing here?" I asked dumbfounded at her

"You stupid butt head." She censored herself. Calvin must be here. 

"Woah watch that language, Merida, from Brave." I joked about how her hair looked. Poofy curly and a mess. 

She glared at me and picked up Calvin before taking leave,  she snapped at me. "Fix this. NOW."

The door slammed and Andy came out of the bathroom. Her face was red and puffy from crying, and she clutched her shoulders delicately. Upon seeing my presence she rushed toward me and fell into my arms. I held her close and let out a deep breath. She was hyperventilating and crying against me. It broke my heart I did this to her, but I couldn't change what I said or did, so just holding her was what I was gonna do until she didn't want me to. 

"I'm so sorry." She cried into my chest. Her body then fell heavily into me as she continued to sob. I knelt and moved to sit on the floor with her in my arms. I shook my head and kissed her delicately on the head. 

"Don't be. I messed up by leaving." I sighed and held her closer to me. "I got the answer I needed." She looked up at me abruptly and let more tears fall down her sweet if not red face. I moved one hand to place it on her stomach and smiled. "We are a family." She smiled at me and hugged me tightly. I wasn't letting her go. I never will. "Andy, I'm here."

She pulled my face down to hers and kissed me passionately. This is where I wanted to be. This is where I belonged. When we finally broke the kiss for air, she placed her forehead against mine and whispered delicately. "It's you. It's always been you." I smiled at this and just felt our hot breaths beating against each other. 

Nothing else needed to be said. We knew this was what we needed to put aside the differences and just be together. After a long while of sitting and holding one another, it was apparent that Andy had fallen asleep on my chest. I moved one arm underneath her legs and the other on her back as I picked her up. I carried her to the bed and laid her down underneath the covers. I looked at the time and realized why everyone was so angry to have been woken up is because it was Saturday and when everything went down it was 5 am. It was now 6:30 and honestly, I was still tired.

 I walked around to the other side of the bed and laid down next to Andy. She moved in her sleep and laid her head on my chest. I smirked and wrapped one arm around her and played with her hair with the other. I turned my head and looked at the morning sky that was ending its coloring of the sunrise. I let out a breath and closed my eyes. 

I knew she was asleep, but I had to say it finally. 

So I kissed the top of her head and whispered to the delicate flower that held onto my torso as a little kid did with its stuffed bear. I smiled once more and let the words spill from my lips to her little unlistening ears. 

"I love you, Andy."