Why The Hell Not (Currently Editing)

What Has Been Going On With Abi

Kai
I watched as my father and Zara continued their conversation. They were talking about her school and just little things about her life. He didn't get too personal, I was just happy that we were talking about something other than sleepovers.

I still don't agree with the outcome of that situation. The sound of Abigail's voice cracking broke my heart. I know how much those sleepovers meant to her. I never wanted them to just stop, it was a break from reality.

We could've gradually stopped, instead of the weekend just doing a day till we were done with it.

I know I have a mate, I'm 100% aware of that and I care about Zara. I also know I am now an Alpha and my priorities should be changing, but I am still a kid. I never really had time to be a child or to enjoy anything.

The weekends were my only break from school and Alpha training with my father. The weekends were the only time I could be a kid and just focus on having fun. I was able to let every emotion I had out. I was able to be myself.

I don't want them to completely end because they were the only freedom I had all of my life. I know they gave freedom to Abigail too.

Abigail became the symbol of my childhood. She's the only person who knew I would be an Alpha, and didn't treat me any differently.

She's my attachment to the past, before life became so chaotic. Before Alpha Malakai, when I was just Kai.

She's my connection to who I truly am...

Looking over I could see how intrigued my father is with her. He's not nice to most people, his approval is like being blessed around here. It made me happy to see him interested in her as a person.

Zara looked so comfortable telling her stories. I couldn't make out what was being said since I was so deep in my head.

Zara is naturally beautiful, not needing to do anything special to her face or body. I found myself studying her face. Trying to pick up on her different expressions and what they could mean. So far I know she scrunches up her nose slightly when she's excited. When she's thinking hard she starts squinting her eyes a little. She also favors her right side over her left, even though she's left-handed.

I was fascinated with her. Wanted to know everything about her.

My mother came out of the kitchen looking nothing but guilty. She looked like she was hiding something. She played with her fingers and looked at the ground, that means she had something on her mind or she knew something. She was not good at keeping secrets, she can't hold anything in.

"What's wrong Patty?" My father asked, hugging her gently.

"I'm just thinking about something. I'm okay, I promise" she smiled. She looked over to me and Zara, her face screaming that something was on her mind. Just as she started to bite the inside of her mouth she broke. "Abigail left out" she blurted out.

"Why? Is she okay?" I asked, a wave of concern flowing through my body. She never leaves without saying goodbye.

I could see how uncomfortable Zara looked. Her body tensed up and I could sense that she was lightly growling. I wondered what's up with her?

"She just needed to head out. Check on her before you two go to sleep, yeah?" She asked.

"Yeah, yeah of course" I said.

"Are you okay?" I asked through the mind link.

She didn't respond. She must really be upset about the sleepover situation, but I'm not sure how to fix that to where everyone is happy.