Why The Hell Not (Currently Editing)

Bonus Chapter Z/C

1 year later
Charles
I rubbed my sweaty hands on my pants leg as I tried to relax. Today Zoey was down to either visit, or hopefully to stay with me. My stomach felt uneasy knowing that whatever she decides to do would be sorta up to me.

Damn it, I hope she stays! I don't think I could take her leaving me again. It physically hurt watching her walk away from me last time.

"Calm down, man. Damn!" I heard Alpha Kai chuckle as he walked back in the living room. He was just coming back from putting the twins down for a well needed nap. They were literally screaming for no good reason other than the fact that they could.

"I'm trying" I said honestly. "I just really want to get this right, ya know? It's not everyday someone is given a second chance"

I wanted to be perfect for her, to be everything she could ever need in a man.

He nodded his head and sat down on the couch, scrolling through his phone for a moment. He didn't look to be busy, and I don't have anyone else to ask, so I decided to try and be open with him.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Shoot" he said looking up from his phone.

"How long did it take you to get comfortable with Zara?" I asked. "I feel like I'm going to mess everything up because I'm so worried about... everything! I mean what if she gets down here and thinks I'm too boring or something? What if she hates the house? What if she hates me?! I really, really like her and I just NEED this to work.."

"..I guess what I'm asking is, how do I become all that she needs so that she only wants me? Zara loves you, like actually loves you. How do I get that?"

"Charles, don't let this conversation leave this room, are we clear?" His eyes narrowed.

I nodded and leaned forward like I was getting ready to hear some big secret.

"It wasn't alway like it is now. When we first got together we argued a lot because I was a fucking dumb ass. I thought I could just squeeze her in my life instead of building a new one with her. It's not about being perfect, it's about just simply being there. Putting her above all others and knowing when to just let her win. Women aren't hard to make happy, you just have to take the time to communicate"

"I did try to communicate, and that got me nowhere but more pissed off. So what if that's still not enough? What if I'm just truly not enough for her or anyone?" I asked. I gave my all once and had my heart chewed up and spat back out on my face. I don't think I can handle that again. My wolf just got his voice back.

He gave me a knowing, sympathetic  look. "Zoey is not Abigail. The worst thing you could possibly do is confuse  the two"

I sighed loudly. The sound of her name still made my chest feel heavy despite all my efforts to forget her. To forget all that she's put me and my wolf through.

I chewed the inside on my cheeks to keep the tears at bay. What if this is still too soon? Was it a mistake? Asking her to come down? "I know. I just want to get this right. I want her to stay and to actually be happy with me.

"Well Zara thinks she'll stay, so that's almost a full yes right there" He joked.

I didn't like Alpha Malakai at first, in fact I hated him at a time, how could I not? I saw him as the sole reason my relationship didn't work, the reason she didn't love me. Even when she said it, I could feel that it was nothing but a lie. I would constantly be compared to him in more ways than I'd like to get into..

But now him and I were at a decent place. Decent enough to have this conversation.

I chuckled. Zara has been telling me that she talks about me often, which is reassuring because I talk about her constantly. She's all I cared to think about.