I sighed, we were winning the practice match, but something still felt off about it. Our team managed to get a lead on Aoba Johsai, but the thing that was the most off about it was that Oikawa wasn't there. Nobody but Oikawa would be crazy enough to ask for a practice match with our team, and then proceed to make the terms that Tobio and I had to play.
Speak of the devil, that was when Oikawa walked into the gym, while I was spacing out wondering where he was.
"Yahoo~ Hi there Y/N-chan and Tobio-chan," Oikawa smiled and sent a wave towards the two of us. And there was my cue to start overthinking the situation. Why was Oikawa acting like that? Is there something wrong here? Is he planning something? Why did Oikawa show up so late? What is going on right now?
Oikawa went over to talk to his coach, and warmed-up rather quickly, quick enough to be able to join in the game right after Tobio's first serve. It was now Tobio's serve once more, since we had won the point before this. Tobio did his jump serve, and I noticed how Oikawa seemed somewhat shocked at the sudden progression of Tobio having a killer jump serve. Aoba Johsai was able to easily send it back over, with Oikawa setting the ball for Iwaizumi to spike.
Daichi was able to receive the ball and send it over to me, and I felt my entire body tense. Who was I supposed to set the ball to? I could set it back to Tanaka, but they would probably be able to block that. I could send the ball to Hinata, but they might be able to dig that up as well. Daichi? It might not go over, and he's really far back on the court right now. I could send it to Tsukishima, but I don't know how good he really is at spiking.
Before I could decide who to send the ball to, it was already right above my head. I panicked, and was going to send it to Hinata, but I messed it up.
I messed up the set.
It didn't go far enough.
It wasn't enough.
I wasn't enough.
I didn't send the ball to Hinata, instead I had sent it in between Hinata and Tsukishima.
Almost without hesitation, Tsukishima moved to the side and tipped the ball over the net with a simple tap of his hand. Luckily, the other team wasn't able to get the ball up before it hit the ground. Unluckily, Tobio instantly noticed my mistake, and I could hear him scoff from behind me.
I could feel the anxiety build up inside of me. How could I mess up? At the one time where it was important, I messed up. My breathing quickened and my body tensed. I could have done so much better, and yet, I didn't.
"Hey, Y/N." Tsukishima was able to snap me out of my spiraling self-doubt. "Nice set, it was easy for me to trick them with, and I could have hit that if I wanted to, it was definitely better than Kageyama's over there." Tsukishima spoke quietly, just loud enough for me to hear while no one else could hear it. I giggled a bit, even while Tsukishima was trying to make me feel better he still had to slip in a rude comment about Tobio along the way.
I was still anxious and my body was still tense, but my breathing didn't get any faster. It didn't make the anxiety attack disappear completely, but it stopped it from getting any worse than it already was. Before I could steady my breathing, Tobio served the ball over once more, barely making it over. Aoba Johsai was able to receive the ball and send it back over the net with a spike.
Tanaka received the ball and sent it to me, before calling out for me to set it to him. I did just that, I set the ball to Tanaka who was able to spike it right around the blockers' hands. Our team scored another point.
Eventually, we were at match point, with Karasuno in the lead. We were able to score one last point, leading us to win the practice match. Despite me messing up throughout the game, we were able to win the practice match against Aoba Johsai.
After the match, I noticed Oikawa walk towards me. "Good to see that my favorite disciple is still an amazing volleyball player." Oikawa smiled at me, and let out a small laugh.
I looked at him, and gave a weak smile. I knew that it was a painfully fake smile, but it was the best I could muster right now. "Th-thanks, Oikawa-senpai."
I was tired, really tired. I just wanted to go home and sleep. My thoughts were too much for me to handle right now, and one of the only ways that I knew how to escape all of that was by sleeping. I couldn't think all of these things if I was asleep. Sometimes I wished that I could just sleep forever, and this was one of those times.
I glanced over to Oikawa again, and he seemed confused. "Hmm? What's wrong my favorite kouhai?" Oikawa reached up to give me a pat on the head, and I felt myself flinch before he could touch me. Oikawa seemed to notice and put his hand back down by his side. I could see a glint of sadness in his eyes, and I had no idea why he would be sad at this point in time. I mean his team did just lose the practice match, but he didn't seem sad a few seconds ago.
"Oi! Shittykawa what are you doing? You better not be annoying Y/N." Iwaizumi walked over, and I giggled a bit. I hadn't heard that nickname until just now, and it was honestly pretty funny.
Oikawa looked hurt. "I am doing no such thing, Iwa-chan! Y/N and I were having a meaningful conversation, and quit being so mean, Iwa-chan!" Oikawa whined, and once he was finished he began to pout like a child. I began to giggle a little bit once more. I laughed a bit more, it adorable in a way how Oikawa was acting the way he was.
"Hey, shorty, we have to get going now." Tsukishima quickly remarked as he walked past me and towards the door of the gym, along with the rest of my team.
"A-ah, I guess I have to get going now, it was nice seeing you Oikawa-senpai, and you too Iwaizumi-senpai." I smiled softly, and turned away.
I felt Oikawa grab onto my wrist before I could walk too far away. "Here!" Oikawa held out a piece of paper with something written on it. "It's my number, call me sometime and I'd be happy to mentor you some more, just like how I used to!" Oikawa smiled brightly, and I nodded in response.
I waved slightly to Oikawa and Iwaizumi as I joined Tsukishima, who was waiting at me by the door to the gym. Tsukishima and I walked together to the bus and sat in a seat in the back together.
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