𝕀𝕟 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕂𝕚𝕟𝕘'𝕤 𝕊𝕙𝕒𝕕𝕠𝕨 Tsukishima x Male Reader

Part 17: Tired

I was sitting on my bed, and then Tobio opened the door and walked in. He didn't say anything to me. He just walked into my room and sat down next to me. 

"I'm sorry, Y/N." Tobio said, I looked at him with my head tilted slightly. "Can I be honest with you about something for a second? But you have to promise not to tell mom or dad about this." 

I nodded, signaling for him to begin talking to me. 

"When I said all of that stuff about you and Tsukishima, I was lying. I was trying to lie to myself. In all honesty I was... jealous." Tobio sighed. "I was jealous because I wished that certain person would look at me the way that the two of you always look at each other." 

"It's Hinata, isn't it?" Tobio's eyes widened in shock for a second, before he looked away from me and nodded. "It's fine, I knew that you weren't serious when you said those things. If anything I could tell that you were in denial about your own feelings. I guess you could just call it a twin sense or something." 

Tobio laughed a bit, and then he sighed. "I just feel like such a terrible person right now... Every other time I tried to apologize to you it would always come out wrong then I would get angry. It's not fair to you that you always had to deal with me and mom and dad all the time." 

"Heh... you could think about it like that if you wanted to, but at this point I don't even think I'm upset about all of that." I sighed. "At this point, I just feel tired... I'm tired of just everything." 

But I guess you don't want to hear about any of that, Tobio. 

I guess you just don't want to hear about how I'm too tired to keep on going, how everything takes too much energy, how the only things which motivates me to do anything is fear. I just don't want to be here. I don't want to be in this horrid house, and I just want to leave. 

The only thing which keeps me going in the slightest is Tsukishima, he makes me feel like I have some sort of reason to keep on going. He makes me feel happy, which is something that most people can't seem to do. The only reason I can get myself to go to school is so that I can see him. It may not be the best reason to keep on going, but at least it's a start. 

It was almost as if Tobio could tell that I wanted to be alone, so he got up and left my room. I spent the rest of the night hiding inside of my bedroom. I had headphones on and I was just sitting on my bed, staring out the window, listening to music. 

Eventually, I fell asleep. I had no clue that I had fallen asleep until I felt myself being shaken awake by Tobio. 

"Oiii, Y/N. Get up, we have to get to practice." I stood up and rubbed my eyes. Tobio seemed a bit annoyed that I had slept in so late, but he didn't say anything about it. 

I quickly gathered up my things and the two of us walked to the school together. Along the way I was struggling to come up with a topic to talk about, so I decided to say something about the extremely obvious black eye Tobio had. 

"Sooo... Are you gonna do anything about that black eye? Or is your plan just to avoid talking about it with everyone else on the team?"

Tobio stopped in his tracks for a few seconds. "I didn't realize that the black eye was still there... Do you think they'll ask about it?" 

"Yeah, they probably will. I mean someone would always ask me about any of the bruises I had when they noticed it. Plus it's hard not to ask about the black eye." I continued walking. 

Tobio quickly caught up to me. "Maybe it's for the better if any of them ask about it. It'll give me a chance to tell someone what's going on with our family." 

I sighed. "Do you really think that it's a good idea to tell anyone about it?" 

"I don't see why not, maybe we could actually get out of the hellhole known as our house if we had help from other people." Tobio seemed to be getting a little annoyed with my words. "Look, I know that I didn't have to go through as much as you did, but our parents were terrible to me too. They were just bad in a different way." 

Tobio stopped in his tracks, and I stopped next to him. He continued, "They would say things to me that people shouldn't say to anyone, and then I took that anger that they gave me out on you. I would always spew out the nonsense that they told me back to you, and I feel terrible about it." 

I put a hand on his arm in an attempt to calm him down. "I know... but hey, we can talk about all that stuff later. For now, let's just get to school and try to get through the day." 

Tobio seemed a bit shocked that I was able to say those words, and to be honest I was too. I had only said those things because they felt like the words that I needed to hear. He nodded and we walked the rest of the way to school in silence. 

We ended up arriving to practice a little bit later than everyone else. No one seemed to mind, but I still felt a little bad for sleeping in and making Tobio and I late to practice. 

Everyone seemed excited about the practice match with Nekoma that we were having soon. I was slightly excited too, but I was more scared about having to meet and interact with a bunch of people who I didn't even know. It was a terrifying thought. For all I knew all the entire Nekoma volleyball team was full of a bunch of giant scary people who would kill me. 

I managed to snap myself out of those thoughts by thinking about how ridiculous that thought was. Even though the atmosphere of the gym was light, there was still an underlying tension that I could sense. Nobody wanted to address the tension, so everyone just ignored it. 

A few people also went over to check on Tobio, but I didn't want to see or even hear what went down with that. Instead, I spent all of the free time I had either practicing with myself, with Hinata, or with Tsukishima. The main reason that I went over to practice with Hinata was that he always wanted to practice with me, so I thought that for once I should finally set for him. 

Hinata would always make a quick remark about how my sets were great or how they were easy for him to hit. It was always a nice little confidence boost to hear him compliment me like that. 

All of these things, I was thinking about and doing all of these things to distract myself. All of this was to try and distract myself from how tired I was. Though each thing I did or thought about just seemed to take up too much energy. It almost felt like there was no chance of me making it through the day with how much energy simple tasks took. 

It felt like I had no energy to do anything. And to put all of these feelings lightly, they were all a bad sign as to what could go on in the rest of the day. 

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