The Darkest Nights You know those nights where even the brightest of lights seem to fade away. The nights where there's a constant debate between extinguishing your enteral flame. I knew those nights all too well until you came around. You showed me that even the darkest nights have light, but sometimes we need that little extra push from someone to help us out. But every good thing must come to an end, or maybe it's just because you were playing pretend. As I lifted back the curtains to reveal the light that I have been hiding all these years, you would look at me with those beautiful eyes making me feel like I was the only one ever to share such moments. But what is it with the guys who play pretend? The ones who care for a minute then pretend like you never mattered to them. The one who you finally build up the courage to tell that you like them before you become not enough but what if you weren't ever enough. It's why you got to see the face of pretending it's why you are hurting again. It's why he's going on like he did nothing wrong, and she's living life like she's deserved all that's happened. While I'm sitting here staring at the book he left me. The book he made clear for me to read like it was some kind of secret mission. But instead, every time I open that book, I feel dread. I feel my heart sink, and my eyes grow heavy as the tears begin to stream down my face remembering the cuts that you have managed to make deeper. But you couldn't help it, could you... the broken mess that lies within you tried to fix, but you didn't realize that the scares you were about to leave would take another part of me. Remember those dark nights sitting in your car, listening to music and chatting like there's nothing wrong. Remember when I uttered those words that I had been working up the nerve to tell you, and rather than answer the question yourself, you hugged me. I hope you enjoy yourself wherever you end up because your help is why I'm broken now. That darkest that you fought may be gone, but the darkening sky you left behind is just beginning to settle in its place.
