Why is it the little things can bring up terrible memories. Like the countless hours of self hate, the body shaming, the starving. The refusing to eat, even tho you know it's wrong you still do it. Your pulled into this horrible cycle and that you can't escape. The countless time you spend worrying about your looks, your diet, your size, your shape, your weight. Like going to restaurants and lying about you not being able to eat the food, or simply stating your not hungry. How did this happen, why again I thought it was over but this wasn't it. It grows over and over before I know it will take over once again.
By~ anonymous
