Unlocked Passion

Chapter 21

(I've decided to keep going with this book since you guys love it so much. I'll write a few more chapters before I end it completely)

Olivia's POV:

It's been two weeks since everything that happened with Jax and Amelia. And honestly, I would lie and say that I haven't been cautious about the safety of Kiara. Since Spencer said it was ok to take a break from work, I have been taking care of our precious daughter. And it's been challenging. She mostly cries and it feels like I have to do a million things at once. I have to make the bottles, change her diaper, make her stop crying, give her a bath, do her hair, clean the house. It's like I can never sleep. But it's fine though. I can handle all of it. I don't need help.. I don't need it...

No one's POV:

It was the morning and Olivia woke up to the sound of Kiara crying. She groggily woke up and ran to Kiara's room. She picks up Kiara and tries to rock her back and forth. Kiara won't budge. She is still crying. Olivia softly sighs. 

"Come on baby, please stop crying." Olivia saids, begging. Kiara still cries. Liv realized that her talking isn't going to help so she decides to go to the kitchen and heat up her daughter's bottle. When she walks downstairs, she sees the kitchen and living room dirty. Liv groans as she realized that she forgot to clean the night before. 

"Oh my god, I totally forgot to clean last night. Ugh I have to do it today. But I also have to take care of Kiara."

Liv walks to the fridge to grab her pre-made bottle and puts it in the microwave. She bounces Kiara up and down, to make her stop crying. "I know K, I know. Baba's coming. Baba's coming..." She saids before waiting for a few seconds. After a few seconds, she grabs the bottle and finally gives Kiara her bottle. She finally stops crying and Liv is relieved. 

"Oh thank god.." 

Spencer wakes up and goes downstairs to see his girls in the kitchen. He instantly smiles. He walks up to them. "Good morning, my beautiful ladies." Spencer saids as he gives Liv and Kiara kisses on the cheek. Liv smiles. She's honestly glad that he is awake. "What happened? I heard Kiara crying." 

"Oh, um, it's no big deal. She just wanted her bottle." 

Spencer looks at the dirty mess around the house. "Oh wow. This house is dirty." Liv looks around, agreeing.

"Um, yeah, I know. I'll clean the house as soon as I'm done with her. And plus I.. um.. have to do laundry, give her a bath, do her hair, take out the trash, clean the rest of.. um.. the house and..." Spencer stops her as she was rambling. He chuckles. "Babe, that seems like a lot. I can take the day off and help you both." He suggests, volunteering. Liv nods and smiles, declining. 

"Babe, you don't have to. I got this. I am a super mom. I can handle everything. Plus you have a meeting with {insert company's name here} today. So, you need to make a big impression." Spencer looks at her with little worry. Liv notices. "Are you sure baby?" He asks to be sure. Liv gives him a kiss. "We'll be ok. I promise." Spencer eventually smiles and listens. 

"Ok. I'll get ready for the meeting. I'll call to check on you during lunch ok?" Liv nods. Spencer smiles and gives her and Kiara a kiss. "I'll see you both home later." Spencer saids before going back into their room to get ready for work. Olivia takes away Kiara's bottle, making Kiara cry again. Liv looks at her pouting. Spencer looks at her smiling. "Sounds like she's wants more."

Liv softly chuckles. "I'll give K her pacifier. I promise, I'm good babe. Go to work." Spencer nods and gets ready for work

After some time, Spencer walks out to the front door. "Alright, I'm about to leave." He saids. Liv looks at him smiling. She then walks to him and gives him his go-to-plate. It's his breakfast. "Here's your breakfast. I know you have to be at work early today so I just wanted to give you your go-to-plate." Spencer smiles and takes his food. He looks back at the kitchen to see that it's a mess. 

"Babe, the kitchen is a mess-" He gets cut off by Kiara crying in her room. "I know.. um.. I swear.. I'll get.. um.. everything done by the time you get home ok? It's just that right now, I have to get Kiara." Spencer notices her behavior. Liv doesn't really seem like herself. She looks flustered. She looks overwhelmed. She seems sad and stressed. He doesn't like this feeling with Liv. He has been noticing that his girlfriend has been feeling this way for weeks now. 

He realizes that Liv is now being more cautious ever since the events of Jax and Amelia. But he didn't want to bring it up right now so he just left it alone. "Alright, well, go get Kiara. I'm going to head to work. Love you and Kiara. Thank you for the breakfast." Liv nods and smiles quickly. "Yep. You're welcome. Have a great meeting. Love you. I'll see you soon." Liv then pushes Spencer out the door and closes it before running to Kiara, who is still crying. "I'm coming baby." She sighs before going into her room, picking Kiara up and rocking her back and forth. 

"Shh...shhh. It's ok baby. Mommy's here. Shh... mommy's here..." And at that point, Olivia lets out all of her tears. She knew the stress of being a mom was getting to her. She didn't want to feel it but she knew she had to. 

Liv sobs hard onto the floor, still holding a crying Kiara. "I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry..." Liv saids to Kiara crying. She then hears the smoke alarm go off. "Oh shit, the breakfast!" Liv then puts Kiara back in her crib before running back downstairs to turn the alarm off. She manages to not burn the house down and starts to clean the kitchen. As she is about to start, she hears Kiara crying again. 

As she is running to get Kiara, she sees clothes all over the hallway. "Oh, I forgot! I have to do laundry..." Liv then picks up the clothes and quickly runs to the laundry room to put her clothes in the washer. She still hears Kiara and runs back to her. Mind you, Liv is still sobbing during all of this. 

She picks up Kiara and rocks her back and forth again. "Hey, why not we take a bath together, huh? That would be relaxing right?" Liv tearfully asks while Kiara is still crying. Liv is panicking as if she is having anxiety. Liv looks like she is not in the right head space. She doesn't even realize it. "Come on, let's take a bath." 

Liv takes Kiara in the bathroom and holds her while filling up the tub. After the tub is filled, Liv puts Kiara in the bathtub. While Liv was in her thoughts, she accidentally lets go of Kiara and she ends up almost drowning in the tub. Liv screams and quickly grabs her out of the tub. Kiara is crying even more. But this time, harder. Liv hardly sobs as she didn't mean to let go of her. Liv sobs into the floor, holding Kiara with her dear life. Kiara appeared to be fine. She didn't cough or choke thankfully. 

Liv then sees the water coming out of the washer from the distance as she forgot to close it. She then hears water coming down from the kitchen. She thinks the kitchen sink accidentally overflowed. Liv is panicking as if she is having anxiety. Her eyes look red as she hasn't gotten any sleep since taking care of Kiara. Liv was tired. Liv felt broken. She didn't know what to do. 

At this point right now, she finally realized that she had postpartum depression. With a straight face while tears are falling down, she looks at Kiara and holds her sobbingly saying:

"I'm sorry... I'm so so sorry..."

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I'm back everyone. I apologize if this wait took long. I just got hired at my new job so I have been busy for the past couple of days. But I'm back now and I am ready to write more for you guys. Next chapter coming soon. I missed you guys.