Mate (GxG) ✔️

Chapter 34

Alex's POV

It's been seven hours since my body came to a stand still at a faraway, lonely but also beautiful tree. The tree took a few hard, frustrated punches and lost a few branches but it's looks ok I guess.

Unfortunately the tree is the only thing I could reach to punch. Not necessarily to get rid of my indescribable rage about what happened but also my way of letting my dad know his plan didn't work.

He sent me there, he compelled me to walk away from the situation. He sent me there to calm down but it most certainly didn't fucking work. My blood is still boiling. I'm still thinking of all the ways I would kill that girl.

I'll probably thank him tomorrow but I'm still a little mad at him right now and I don't want to think about him right now. I have about forty steps before I will enter my bedroom and I have no idea what is waiting on the other side.

I just want to get to my beautiful Maya.

Luckily I know she is in there because I can feel her.

I lean my head against the door and take a deep breath. I can hear Maya's heart beating a bit irregular which means her mind is busy but I don't want to know what she is thinking. I don't want to know if there is the slightest doubt or regret. The worst part is, the chances are very good. There might be a chance that she hates me and regrets being with me and I wouldn't blame her.

I scared her.

She was afraid of me and I'll probably never forgive myself for that.

I take another deep breath and slowly open the door. I hear her slightly gasp at the suddenness and look up to her. "Sorry. I didn't mean to sca-" I pause and look down at the ground in defeat.

I don't ever mean to scare her but today is clearly not my day. I've failed miserably with my promises to her.

I close the door and lean back against it. She is on the bed, sitting back against the headboard holding her knees. I can smell her body lotion which means she already took a shower.

I look at her and she just stares back at me. I don't know what to say because I don't know what's going on in her mind. I don't know what she's feeling and I don't want to say something that might make it worse.

The silence coming from her side doesn't help at all. I hate it when she is silent. I'd much rather have her yelling at me. At least then I know what's on her mind and how she's feeling.

I have absolutely nothing to go on right now.

"I needed you today" she breaks the intense silence in a hoarse tone.

The emotion in her voice and the tears building up in her eyes makes me want to drive a steak through my chest.

I've broken my promise to her. The promise to always protect her and keep her safe, to always be there when she needs me. I wasn't there for her and I'll never forgive myself for losing control like that.

"I'm so sorry Maya" I say in a breathless voice and lean back against the door. I really want to go over and hold her but I don't want to scare her.

"You're dad told me where you were" she stands up and slowly walks to the corner of the bed with her hands tugging at one of my shirts she's wearing.

"It was for the best" I whisper and swallow the lump in my throat.

"Not really." she shakes her head. "I was alone here with my thoughts the whole day. I didn't know where you were or what the hell happened this afternoon."

"I know baby I'm sorry." I whisper and rub my eyes.

I clench down on my teeth and look at the ground in defeat. I can almost feel her emotion inside me. The tone of her voice and the rapid pace of her heartbeat keeps my eyes on the floor. I can't find myself to look up and see the fear in her eyes.