Sunset Lovers

19. How To Live Without You

After our romantic dinner while enjoy the sunset and we make love all night we sleep at Yacht.

06.05 am i wake up first and saw my husband still sleep while hugging me.
I move from the bed slowly and go to bathroom, i wake up early to enjoy the sunrise. I make a cup coffee and go to deck, the sunrise look so clear and beautiful i was amazing in view minutes suddently someone back hug me and kiss my shoulder.

Good morning wifey... why you didn't wake me up?? Hmmm.... *back hug and keep kissing her shoulder to her neck*

You in deep sleep, you must be so tired so i just let you sleep more.
Looks the sunrise so beautiful hubby..
Hopefully after your surgery succest we can enjoy this together with Mylo,i turn back to face him and hug him thigh.
*he hug me back and just silent*

Let's just enjoy this moment and not talk about that. Okay... I love you *peck her lips and kiss her passionately*
We enjoy the sunrise, drink coffee and hugging until i heard her tummy growling..hmm....my wife is hungry...
Hahhahaha.... *we laugh together*

I bring some food on the fridge, i just need to heat on microwave and served for you. Just wait here.. *kiss her and leave to kitchen*
I prepare the food and we breakfast together after that just sunbathing while enjoy the view.

Before lunch time we plan back to harbour. We go inside and shower together, but the ending is we make love again.

We make love under the shower, move to sink table, until back to our bed until we both climax. Ahhh....ahhh....ahhh... i'm so addict with you wifey...ahhh....
I keep pumping and fuck her hard and deep and more wilder when she is moaning my name...ahhh...ahh....

Actually this morning i still sore from last night but now we do it again and again...Ahhh....Ahh....Hubby.... faster...
Ahhhh...ahhh... I Love you....Daniel..
*i became so needy and want more*

Our sex time finish around 12.30 pm we are too tired and sleep again until 2 pm.
We back to harbour and take late lunch and comeback home.

5 pm arrived home and our baby is waiting infront the door..

Papaaa.....Mom......
Hey Baby.......You miss us??
* he run and hug his Papa and we kiss Mylo together,i became teary eyes and thinking again how my life without him, but i hold my tears to not flowing, i dont want to make him sad or worried about us before his surgery*

Like he said... anything happen we should be happy for him. Hevalways remind me to not cey infront others.

Time skip... * The Day*
It's been 3 hours and the surgery still not finish yet. Me, aunty Margaret, Clara and Jenifer was waiting outside, and Mylo at home with Meri.

I'm so nervouse now...
We don't know what will happen. The doctor said we must ready for everything because noebthe chance is only 15% because his sickness is getting worse. I want to cry but i cannot...

After 1 more hour the doctor go out from OR and talk with me. He said.. the surgery done and waiting his body to response, now Daniel in coma and what we can do is just pray and keep strong for him.

I didn't dare to let go far from him.. i keep stay outside the ICUvand saw him from the glass window.
I call my parents about Daniel condition and ask them to pray for him.

Jenifer :Mam....you need to eat...

I just shake my head... how to eat if my husband was there.

Aunty M : Zoey...remember what Daniel said.. you need to be strong for Mylo.
Comeone eat little bit and drink this...

Okay... * i eat few bite and drink*

24 hours has pass but Daniel still in same condition. I ask aunty and clara to home first, they need to rest. I'll stay here so anytime he wake up im here. *sad and want to cry*

Now only me and Jenifer and suddently the doctor run because Daniel condition drop. I'm so nervous now...

After 30 minutes doctor come out and said... Sorry Mrs. Johnson your husband cannot make it, sorry for your lost..
The time is Friday, 11.15 am

I just look blank and walk inside the ICU to see his face for the last time, i hold his face and kiss him for the last time. Aunty coming and bring Mylo with her, i carried him to see closer his Papa for the last time. He is crying and keep calling his Papa, and make me more down, i feel so weak and after that i dont know what happen.

I open my eyes and laying on hospital bed. What happen, is it just dream?

Jenifer shake her head.
You need to be strong for Mylo Mam..
You can cry...maybe you'll feel better.

How is the process?

Jnf: I have call the organisation to help the funeral preparation like what Mr. Daniel said. They will bring him to mosque and do the funeral soon.
Here your clothes, you need to clean up and change first.
I also have call your family and they will gather pray for Mr.Daniel also info the company.

Thank you Jenifer....
I walk to toilet and change to be ready for my husband funeral. After finish we go out and i hug my baby thigh.
After the funeral done we go home, i just want to be alone in our room.

Meri please take care Mylo a moment, i'll go to my room. I lock the door and crying hard... i feel so broken, i dont know how to pass this sadness... Daniel.... I miss you hubby...

*keep crying*
I lock my self , i didn't eat and just silent and drink some water, i open all pur memory and crying again. I pray for him and remember what he said... when he's gone i need to be strong and happy for Mylo and him.

I clean up and go out to meet my son.

Mom.... don't cry.... *he look at me with teary eyes*

He just 1.5 years and know how to make me calm down and focus to him.
I'm sorry baby..... Mom didn't take care of you this few days. I kiss him and hug him thigh...

Let's Nyam Nyam....

I smile...let's go...
We eat and play together make me relize, i have Mylo and i need to be strong and live happy with him.

Until a month i go to Daniel grave almost every day....i bring blue rose for him... first flower he give to me...
I come with our baby boy... i can live normal now but not yet fully move on. I still want to stay here...near to him.
We stay at London about 3 months now.

I plan to travel around europe with Mylo and Jenifer.
I ask Meri to go home to her hometown because she need to visit her family and back to SG after a month.

We travel around for a month and go to Switzerland, staying at our house.. yeahh...the house he buy for me because i love to stay here, i love the nature,beautiful view and our moment.
We stay here for a month and back to London.

It's been 6 months without him, i need to move on and live normal again. I plan going back to SG and visit my family at my hometown.
3 months ago i ask Jenifer to build small cafe at SG, i want to start small business and distract my sadness for losing him. From now i must attend some business meeting as a share holder, i need to organize our Foundation "D&Z Foundation" , and that coffee for my free time because i love to cook.

Helen and Jenifer will help me to organize everthing include my schedule.

After arrived SG rest for 1 week and i go to my hometown to visit my parent and family. I staying there about 3 weeks and back to SG to start my Cafe.

Mylo is 2 years now... we have celebrate his birthday with my parents and family, we go holiday to Bali and spending time together.
He smart, active and so lovely, he always said will take care of me.

Arrived SG he got present from his Papa and the video.
Yeahh... he prepare all of that before and ask his lawyer to give to Mylo every years on his birthday until he is 17 years old.
What a lovely man... ahh..I miss him.

I miss you hubby....... 🥺
I promise to be happy for you and Mylo

**To be continue...