Burning Myself

Changes

It's lust,

It's dangerous,

Nobody knows me, it's cold,

and I walk down this path, all alone,

and I keep my emotions here,

this emotion roller coaster,

and i wasn't kidding when I said,

You take my breath away

Here, I'm going through changes,

and I can't take this anymore,

lately, I really feel like I'm losing control of myself.

I'm complaining, but life is getting complicated,

and I'm realizing I want help,

but my kind of help is not the help I want.

What do I care? 

The only thing I really want is the high,

the catastrophe at light,

and here, your dad is always snapping at you,

just whip out a pill, pop it, burst.

Fucking drug dealers hangin' around me,

and here, I just lost my best friend. 

Fuck It. 

They can't understand this new me.

The fame, everyone's lookin' at me,

and I'm giving you a hard time,

but really you just don't understand,

as the sleeping pills make me feel alive at night,

and I know the sound of that voice...

don't hold me down.

And I'm going through changes.

I won't wake up in some hospital,

no, don't let me wake up at all,

just let me make it right,

and I love that feeling where if I don't know if I can realize the danger,

the devil on my shoulder dares me,

the angel wishes for me, cries for me, and morns for the old me. 

And I'm going through changes...