only bullshit (cancelled)

part 4

April 14th, 2018
Heathers pov:

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I got to 2nd period and sat down, bitting my nails. Thinking i should just ditch or if what she wants to say is important. I bounce my leg thinking, i finally just crack my shell and raise my hand. "Yes Ms.Nill?" Mrs.Ryan asked me, "May i use the restroom?" She sighs and nods. I dart out of the classroom.

I walk to the bathroom right by her room, i walk in and shut the door. Looking at the stalls, "Moe?" She came from out the corner, her eyes puffy and red. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. She sniffs, playing with her hands. "Is there something you need to tell me?" I ask, moving closer to her.

She nods, "Heather look.. I'm sorry for everything. All these years, everything i put you through.. I didn't mean it. Genuinely.. I just feel that i really like you. I always have, that's why i got so jealous, i was mad all the time and i didn't hang out with any of my friends." She sighs.

I sigh softly, my lips parting. "Ever since 7th grade.. I just, i felt things. I felt different around you, and being my best friend, there was no way we would be more than that. And i fucked it up and that's why we are here now." She exclaimed.

"Moe-" She cut me off, "Just listen to me. Okay? I really really like you, and being a bitch to you? Made me think you'd try to come crawling back to me but really it was me begging for you. I just want you back into my life again.." She looked down.

I got even closer to her, "Hey.. Look at me." She looked up at me, tears forming. I wiped them gently, she giggled and frowned again. "I forgive you. I just wish you would've just told me at the time.. You wouldn't have tried sabotaging my high school years."

We both laughed, and then stopped. I was still smiling. She looked deeply in my eyes, looking at my lips once a while, i didn't know if i felt the same.. Fuck i didn't even know my sexuality. She got closer to my face, closing her eyes. I began moving away and she kissed me.

But.. I kissed her back. We never have done this before.. And i haven't had much experience. But i seemed really into it, it felt normal and that it was something I'm used to. We pulled away, she walked me backwards into a stall and shutting it. She pinned me against the stall door, kissing me. I kissed her back, our tongues swirling around each others mouths.

She pulled my hair and i moaned, i began kissing her neck and she smiled, breathing heavy. She pushed me back a bit, tugging at my shirt. She pulled it over my head, throwing it below us. She layed her hands on my lower back, making my back arch. She groped my chest and began unzipping my shorts. My movements became a little stiff but she didn't notice. "God i've wanted to do this for so long." She groaned.

"Me too." I whimpered, i truly did..But this wasn't the right time. We kissed and i pushed her back gently. I picked up my shirt putting it back over my head, she was confused. "Did i do something?" She asked, i opened the stall door, darting to leave. "Heather?" Moe said a bit more loudly.

I turned to her, "Im sorry- i just can't.." She was about to say something and i ran out the door, i didn't even return to 2nd period i just walked out, walking home. It soon began raining so i was soaked by time i got home. No one was home thankfully, sighed of relief. Going inside,  immediately going to the shower.

I just couldn't think right now, kind of disappointed that i left, especially leaving moe without an explanation. I felt like an idiot..But her hands felt so good running up and down my body. I couldn't help but moan under my breath to the thought.

I got in the shower, taking off my clothes as if it was moe doing it not me. I bit my lip, getting in the tub. The water felt so good on my skin, wishing moe was here to see how much i want her to touch me.

I let my hair get wet, i was just running my hands all around my body, not missing any spot. Pretending the hot water was moe kissing every inch of me. I couldn't help but tumble a bit. I decided to focus, so i washed my body and just enjoyed the water for a few.

Just the thought of moe making my thighs clench. I bit my lip, slowly moving my hand to my pussy. Cupping myself, i whimpered. My breasts hard as the water bounces off my wet skin. I put my hand a bit farther back, closing my eyes and putting one of my fingers inside of me.

I threw my head back, my mouth wide open not making a sound. My breathing hitched, as i struggled to make any noise. I just kept repeating moe's sexy raspy tone in my head, imagining the dirtiest things she would say to me.

I began moaning. Entering another finger, using my other hand squeezing my left breast. I felt myself close, i imagined my fingers as moe's mouth. That's what got to me. I almost collapsed onto the floor. Instead i ended up knocking down some body wash and a rag. My thighs closing on me, i was shaking and gripping the shower curtain.

Trying not to fall, i caught my breath and decided to get out. i wrapped myself in a towel, going to my room. I brushed my hair and put on a long-sleeve baby pink shirt and old jeans. I was bored for a few hours and felt like just going anywhere without thinking of moe or anyone.

I went to the place me and my mom used to go visit when i was younger, the lake. It wasn't just a lake, it was somewhere i call home. We don't have a beach here so it's cool because the lake has sand on the shore. I walked there since my mom still wasn't home, it was only like 2-4 blocks from my trailer.

I soon arrived and just sat on the sand, taking off my sneakers and socks letting the sand run through my feet. The lake crashing like ocean waves, it felt so real in a way i could never explain. I was listening to soft core music on my phone, wearing my wired headphones.

It was about 20 minutes of just enjoying myself until i saw a shadow, i took off my headphones and looked over. It was moe.

I jumped a bit, "What are you stalking me now? How did you find me?" I asked.. It was strange because no one knows this place except me and my mom.. at least i thought. "You do realize you have your location shared on instagram right? Anyone can track you." Moe said, chuckling.

I realized and nodded my head, "Fair enough." She sat down my me, laying her hands over her knees. "Look heather about earlier- Im so sorry.." I shook my head. "No it's fine.." She scoffed "No- Heather no. It wasn't.. I shouldn't have done that, it was too early." I sighed, "No. It's my fault i'm sorry- it's not that i didn't like it i just.. Im confused on what i-" I looked at her, trying to hint her. She nodded in understanding.

"Right.." She whispered. "Can i stay here? I just wanna sit here with you a bit longer." She said under her breath. I nodded, "Sure." We looked at each other, smiling. We giggled and rested our heads on each others.

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